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08/07/09 10:45
APPARENTLY they’ve
decided to close down homepage, for the sake of me.com or iWeb
users.
Will be transitioning to a new venue soon, details be posted on my previous blog here.
Will be transitioning to a new venue soon, details be posted on my previous blog here.
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It's not the venue, it's the company
17/06/09 01:33
IT was a bad dinner.
And the folks might probably never knew about it. With the onset of
news so far, I guess I’ve tried to stay positive, and if not,
trying to take it well.
I was made to feel like a complete idiot/loser for trying to challenge myself instead. On top of that, it was a dinner where I’m meeting them, only to realize that “it’s not the venue, it’s the company” that’s bad, and that they’re meeting/checking out some guy after that.
If consoling/showing support’s not part of the agenda, I supposed the least that could have been done is not to dig it in.
Of course, I was wrong, and it’s probably one of the worst dinner I ever have.
I truly agree, it’s not the venue, it’s the company
I was made to feel like a complete idiot/loser for trying to challenge myself instead. On top of that, it was a dinner where I’m meeting them, only to realize that “it’s not the venue, it’s the company” that’s bad, and that they’re meeting/checking out some guy after that.
If consoling/showing support’s not part of the agenda, I supposed the least that could have been done is not to dig it in.
Of course, I was wrong, and it’s probably one of the worst dinner I ever have.
I truly agree, it’s not the venue, it’s the company
Jump
15/06/09 08:08
ONE shot one kill. Sounds like a marksman, other than the fact that it’s a different type of gun.
Enough boasting. Technical parts aside, the girls do like this photo, other than me always picking up on the symmetries, the hair and the hand. It’s but a simple take of life, knowing that people have different expectations of what makes a good photo. To them, more than just a jump, it is also the joy of completing the climb, scaling the majestic mountain, a view to die for and completing a small sidequest where they can safely tuck inside a small corner of their memories.
What about you?
Finally.
13/06/09 19:28
YEAR ago this period,
it was a test of resolve.
This time this year, it seems like things have not changed much. Given the current situation, it is the best that I could have handled. Or so I think.
Time and tide waits for no Man. Getting prodded along the path, one can’t help but think forward what best can be done.
Finally a period of enforced rest coming soon, and time to think over next steps.
Till next update.
This time this year, it seems like things have not changed much. Given the current situation, it is the best that I could have handled. Or so I think.
Time and tide waits for no Man. Getting prodded along the path, one can’t help but think forward what best can be done.
Finally a period of enforced rest coming soon, and time to think over next steps.
Till next update.
Random again
17/03/09 00:59
AFTER taking a few
days off from work, trying to get comp back to previous working
condition, and settling lots of misc stuff like brother’s
matriculation...on top of the training that has been on-going for
Aikido, mountain climbing etc...it does feel like a lot have gone
through over the past few months.
Quite a number of issues to settle, and hopefully clearing them as it comes.
Ah well. Strangely the light at the end of the tunnel doesn’t seem to beacon through the mist any more. Or there suddenly appears plenty of mirages in the middle of the desert. Or the world suddenly looked less rosy and more cynical.
It probably is just me who’s having plenty of doubts and trying to clear them as it comes.
Shall cut it short, though the blogging turnaround time should be lesser from now.
Turning in. And out.
Quite a number of issues to settle, and hopefully clearing them as it comes.
Ah well. Strangely the light at the end of the tunnel doesn’t seem to beacon through the mist any more. Or there suddenly appears plenty of mirages in the middle of the desert. Or the world suddenly looked less rosy and more cynical.
It probably is just me who’s having plenty of doubts and trying to clear them as it comes.
Shall cut it short, though the blogging turnaround time should be lesser from now.
Turning in. And out.
I guess...I'm just being mad again
26/01/09 22:02
IT’S been months
since the site is updated, no thanks to my dumb laptop with the
lost entries, and the horror of trying to recover most of my
previous data.
As previous folks might have realized, some of the entries are gone.
Of course, plenty of changes have come and gone since then, and going through the rocky path does help one to grow.
The adjustment to singlehood took a while. While it seem inevitable for a while, I thought things have improved, albeit one sided, I guess. When news of it struck me, taken aback, I was left wondering and re-organizing my life. The months of prodding through hasn’t help much, with lots of photos still left in memory cards and discs, from trips, weddings and such.
Time to organize them, me thinks.
While the fluctuating moods do not affect my enthusiasm for photo taking, I do think my standards have been fluctuating. Carelessness no doubt, I do think I took some photos which I particularly like, without the chance to revisit them yet. Whether or not it’s because while I do enjoy taking them and looking at them is a totally different thing altogether, or because the plain laziness in me is raging, I do not know.
Of course, other things happen along the way. Back to training has been one of them. It has been a revelation that 2 years of missing in action most of the time has not lessen my enthusiasm, if anything, I felt that I do miss the trainings. Smack down on the cold hard mats, the aches and pains of locks, slams, awkward landings on knees and such...ok this sound masochistic. It does feel good, though, ha. I remember 2 years ago, whenever I head for training, I don’t feel that there are as much good people training and it’s been a race for the belt.
No longer. The standard has improved much, and it’s enjoyable that I can train with a lot of new folks who value training as much or even more than me. The search for a better person in all of us, while pursuing the art, understanding the body, movements, reaction and counter-reaction...all felt so good that I’m surprised that I am ever gone from it in the first place.
Well, I guess I’d just be back training as much as I could from now on, ha.
Talking with fellow colleagues and gossiping has been part and parcel of office life. It is also interesting to understand how people view me, and how gossip attracting I can get. Maybe it’s my attitude and my mannerism, with a slack outlook, plenty of Gundams on desk, and a long overdue wedding album which I’m supposed to deliver. Maybe it’s just me. And I had the cheek to said to Paul, on how I would introduce to people how I am, “just see for yourself.”
What a load of crap, ha.
Certain issues in life has made me reflect and relook at myself, and trying to understand myself better. Things like “sunshine outlook”, “positive”, “overtly kind” are certain things I’ve heard, and I really thought that those things are just me, no less, but I overlook the fact that not all people are welcome to such positiveness. There are certain misunderstandings from friends who think that I’m indulging myself and overlooking more important issues when I decided to take up certain propositions, which I got quite disappointed as they do not understand my rationale for taking them up. There was another instance which I surprised even myself as in most normal circumstances I would have reacted almost instinctively, but for that evening I actually welcome people to help out where I do believe I can handle it much better myself. Of course, these small chapters are nothing compared to some of the more bizarre (which Paul often says, “ you’re mad/crazy! ” ) things I have done, which is silly and I’d rather not share here, ha.
I guess I might just be the positive, ever smiling guy who constantly tries to smile, though I rant pretty much all the time
I guess I have been converted to a movie-holic, watching so many movies recently that I’m hooked to it and viewing it with a different eye. I met my ex boss while watching a movie premiere of MILK, who was surprised that I actually “support” the movement, though I honestly am there only because a good friend of mine ask me whether I want to watch a movie and there’s free tickets.
I guess I am getting older, appreciating the finer things in life, being more patient and such, like picking up tea drinking, something I can’t really relate to any friend right now. Or waiting several hours for people. Or getting insulted and yet able to hold my temper.
I guess it’s really frustrating when I felt misunderstood. Probably the need for understanding has always been up there amongst my wishes. And the reason for blogging again. Sounds like a desperate attempt to voice some rants, but it’s an avenue, no less.
I guess I’m learning new things about myself, like I have the “I am an anti-gay” look/mannerism on my face *cringe*.
I guess it feels good to be finally me again. Reacting according to instinct and emotion is something I have gradually forgotten over the years, and it does feel good for me to finally settle back to a person I can relate to.
I guess...I’m just being mad again :p
p.s. Paul is a good friend of mine, nothing more, don’t anyhow guess yah?
As previous folks might have realized, some of the entries are gone.
Of course, plenty of changes have come and gone since then, and going through the rocky path does help one to grow.
The adjustment to singlehood took a while. While it seem inevitable for a while, I thought things have improved, albeit one sided, I guess. When news of it struck me, taken aback, I was left wondering and re-organizing my life. The months of prodding through hasn’t help much, with lots of photos still left in memory cards and discs, from trips, weddings and such.
Time to organize them, me thinks.
While the fluctuating moods do not affect my enthusiasm for photo taking, I do think my standards have been fluctuating. Carelessness no doubt, I do think I took some photos which I particularly like, without the chance to revisit them yet. Whether or not it’s because while I do enjoy taking them and looking at them is a totally different thing altogether, or because the plain laziness in me is raging, I do not know.
Of course, other things happen along the way. Back to training has been one of them. It has been a revelation that 2 years of missing in action most of the time has not lessen my enthusiasm, if anything, I felt that I do miss the trainings. Smack down on the cold hard mats, the aches and pains of locks, slams, awkward landings on knees and such...ok this sound masochistic. It does feel good, though, ha. I remember 2 years ago, whenever I head for training, I don’t feel that there are as much good people training and it’s been a race for the belt.
No longer. The standard has improved much, and it’s enjoyable that I can train with a lot of new folks who value training as much or even more than me. The search for a better person in all of us, while pursuing the art, understanding the body, movements, reaction and counter-reaction...all felt so good that I’m surprised that I am ever gone from it in the first place.
Well, I guess I’d just be back training as much as I could from now on, ha.
Talking with fellow colleagues and gossiping has been part and parcel of office life. It is also interesting to understand how people view me, and how gossip attracting I can get. Maybe it’s my attitude and my mannerism, with a slack outlook, plenty of Gundams on desk, and a long overdue wedding album which I’m supposed to deliver. Maybe it’s just me. And I had the cheek to said to Paul, on how I would introduce to people how I am, “just see for yourself.”
What a load of crap, ha.
Certain issues in life has made me reflect and relook at myself, and trying to understand myself better. Things like “sunshine outlook”, “positive”, “overtly kind” are certain things I’ve heard, and I really thought that those things are just me, no less, but I overlook the fact that not all people are welcome to such positiveness. There are certain misunderstandings from friends who think that I’m indulging myself and overlooking more important issues when I decided to take up certain propositions, which I got quite disappointed as they do not understand my rationale for taking them up. There was another instance which I surprised even myself as in most normal circumstances I would have reacted almost instinctively, but for that evening I actually welcome people to help out where I do believe I can handle it much better myself. Of course, these small chapters are nothing compared to some of the more bizarre (which Paul often says, “ you’re mad/crazy! ” ) things I have done, which is silly and I’d rather not share here, ha.
I guess I might just be the positive, ever smiling guy who constantly tries to smile, though I rant pretty much all the time
I guess I have been converted to a movie-holic, watching so many movies recently that I’m hooked to it and viewing it with a different eye. I met my ex boss while watching a movie premiere of MILK, who was surprised that I actually “support” the movement, though I honestly am there only because a good friend of mine ask me whether I want to watch a movie and there’s free tickets.
I guess I am getting older, appreciating the finer things in life, being more patient and such, like picking up tea drinking, something I can’t really relate to any friend right now. Or waiting several hours for people. Or getting insulted and yet able to hold my temper.
I guess it’s really frustrating when I felt misunderstood. Probably the need for understanding has always been up there amongst my wishes. And the reason for blogging again. Sounds like a desperate attempt to voice some rants, but it’s an avenue, no less.
I guess I’m learning new things about myself, like I have the “I am an anti-gay” look/mannerism on my face *cringe*.
I guess it feels good to be finally me again. Reacting according to instinct and emotion is something I have gradually forgotten over the years, and it does feel good for me to finally settle back to a person I can relate to.
I guess...I’m just being mad again :p
p.s. Paul is a good friend of mine, nothing more, don’t anyhow guess yah?
Some useful iPhone apps
21/09/08 14:43
TRYING desperately
not to jailbreak my phone for the moment, I must say that it is
only a bit of a nuisance that some mundane stuff that I wish had
been implemented can’t been done.
With that saying, since I’ve been holding off from getting it for a year plus, waiting for the official launch because of lawful reasons, I guess it’s pretty straightforward to remain true to Apple.
Ok, I know this sounds crap, since I’ve jailbroke my iPod. Ha.
Anyways, there’s 2 nifty apps that locals/ Singaporeans would find useful:
1. Fstream:
For listening to radio on the go. The lack of radio has been solved! (though 98.7fm does have problems sometimes)
2. Local Picks by trip advisor
Tracks your position and introduces food to you =D
With that saying, since I’ve been holding off from getting it for a year plus, waiting for the official launch because of lawful reasons, I guess it’s pretty straightforward to remain true to Apple.
Ok, I know this sounds crap, since I’ve jailbroke my iPod. Ha.
Anyways, there’s 2 nifty apps that locals/ Singaporeans would find useful:
1. Fstream:
For listening to radio on the go. The lack of radio has been solved! (though 98.7fm does have problems sometimes)
2. Local Picks by trip advisor
Tracks your position and introduces food to you =D
It's been a while...
08/09/08 23:53
Unexpected present
26/07/08 00:20
IT’s been days since my birthday passed, and it’s a pleasant surprise that I’m still getting a birthday present!
Adding to the latest collection, the newly unwrapped beauty - master’s guide. Hope it’d spark some creative juices
Thinking back, I guess I’m easily contented. A simple gesture like this makes my day better, and though today I couldn’t perform to a standard I would have wanted, I really felt guilty about it. Of course, sometimes being an assistant means you forego chances to shoot, which is totally fine - especially under tricky conditions. Murphy’s law set in today, and everything a photography hates came true - bad lights, glass ceilings (how can you even bounce?!), flash deciding to act up on you - and the list goes on. If I’m the one who’s doing the shooting, I think I would have panicked - my equipment really let me down badly.
Thank god that today I’m still the assistant, ha.
It was a really good experience of course, for you learn more under stress, quoting my other boss. The ability to think on the feet to churn out more variety to deliver helps if you gain more experience, especially when the normal table shots are negligible. It helps that the bride today was sporting, and goaded the groom into dancing, and eventually guests chipped in to enjoy the night away.
I must say I enjoyed this wedding even though it could have been worse. At least I saw what I liked - the couple really enjoying themselves. Most of the time, banquets were but a waste of time, an act to satisfy friends and relatives. It doesn’t help where anyone start to lose their temper or patience. What went through today was really the joy of 2 person getting together, and not a rehearsed act where people are going through the motion.
It makes taking photos an enjoyable experience
Thinking back on being contented, I guess I can’t help but reflect on what cheers me up - I guess it’s the feeling of acknowledgement from another person. I only helped my photography boss for 4-5 times and he offered to pay me a higher pay for helping out with assisting with photoshoots, which was really different comparing among the different jobs I had. And the fact that he bought me a present totally surprised me. Of course, different people have different perspectives on the motion of “gifting”, ha.
Oh well, shall not think back for now. Volunteering later, sleeping soon, tas!