Caught in the Techno-Trap


Faster not Deeper.


I'm not sure why I'm writing this, only that I feel it and don't really understand it, but I'm finding that I've put my hope in technology.

I depend on it for communication. For scheduling. For finances. For entertainment. Pictures, music, writing, reading..... virtually every part of me is connected to a microchip somehow.

But not my soul. And sabbatical is exposing my deep longing to find something deeper in my computer. But it's given what it can give. So I download a new program and try to find contentment in it.

The thing is that technology is consistently dynamic. I can count on my computer to start (since I've switched to a Mac that is). Whereas with God, I can't always assume that if I schedule the time he'll show up. Actually I can't depend on myself. I can't depend on my spirit to slow and be still enough to listen. So I listen to my computer instead. (Right now I'm rating songs in my iTunes Collection).

The work of restoring my spirit is much harder than emailing, scheduling, etc...

I think that's because I can't restore my spirit. Only God can. And he can't do it in my schedule. So I email instead of sitting in the Spirit.

The real question with technology is who serves who? Is the computer really my servant or am I its? That's really the question with God as well. Who is the servant? Me? I find myself frustrated that God hasn't fit into my plans. Most of which center around me.

Faster not deeper. I find that I'm willing trade the deep waters of an awakening Spirit for the productive speed and efficiency of technology.

Posted: Fri - January 30, 2004 at 07:23 AM        

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