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Just some random images of Los Angeles Union Station and The Los Angeles County
Museum of Art. In my efforts to get well, and get out of my
apartment, I took a little trip today and snapped some random shots
of life in Los Angeles. The mural (above) was my favorite of the
day. It really captures a sense of the people that call Los Angeles
their home.
Pictures from the Yucca Valley/Sawtooth Ridge giant desert forest fire
that is now threatening the town of Yucca Valley, CA, a population of 17,000 residents.
It is feared that this "super fire" could be disastrous if it
climbs further northward to the resort towns of the Big Bear Lake area. The condition of the fire has
become so severe due to high winds, ample dry and dead forest trees
killed by bark beetles and the sizzling 108 F day temperatures
with plenty of desert winds fanning the flames. Currently, there
are over 4000 firefighters fighting this giant desert forest
fire.
A big thank you to
PizzaBabe, ZillaFag, AJ,
Special
Delivery Mark,
Bob &
Andy and anyone else I
forgot to mention, for all the emails and voicemail's that I have
received during the last few weeks. They have brought a smile to my
face and made me laugh inside.
Depression is a disease. It is a chronic disease that you just have
to learn to live with. The only way I can describe it is like...a
permeating cloud of anxiety that lies below the surface of
everything in your life. Your home, your work, your personal lives
with others. It is always there, slowly sucking away at your energy
to enjoy your life with yourself and others you care about.
There are times of remission, and times of great battles. This last
"battle" has been especially difficult for me because of the amount
of physical pain I have experienced living through it. I've had
numerous migraine headaches and a lot of generalized fatigue. I
have missed quite a bit of work. Also, I have had some personal bad
news in the last three weeks that has exacerbated an already very
difficult emotional period. All of these factors have made this
"battle with the dragon", a very difficult one. Maybe the most
serious battle I have ever had.
Still, being able to comprehend the seriousness of my situation, I
started to take prescribed antidepressants again and return to
psychotherapy, something that I vowed never to do again. It was a
very difficult decision, but I felt in the end, it was what I need
to do at the time for my own mental health.
I have to admit, I am starting to feel a little less anxious and
melancholic. Which is a step in the right direction.
Thank you, again, everyone for your heartfelt wishes and kind
words. It means a lot to me.
xxxoooo
Tigz .:.
The time, the late 1980's.
I just had just came out to my parents.
My world was upside down.
I was very scared.
I was just about to enter my first major bout of Depression.
I was numb with guilt, doubt, and worry of my future.
I would listen to this song over and over again back then.
I would drive in my car late at night and sing from my soul.
I felt the lyrics had been written about my life, my pain, my
future at that moment in my own history.
The time, the present.
Sadly, nothing has changed..
The Song - True Faith - New Order
I feel so extraordinary
Somethings got a hold on me
I get this feeling Im in motion
A sudden sense of liberty
I dont care cause Im not there
And I dont care if Im here tomorrow
Again and again Ive taken too much
Of the things that cost you too much
I used to think that the day would never come
Id see delight in the shade of the morning sun
My morning sun is the drug that brings me near
To the childhood I lost, replaced by fear
I used to think that the day would never come
That my life would depend on the morning sun...
When I was a very small boy,
Very small boys talked to me
Now that weve grown up together
Theyre afraid of what they see
Thats the price that we all pay
Our valued destiny comes to nothing
I cant tell you where were going
I guess there was just no way of knowing
I used to think that the day would never come
Id see delight in the shade of the morning sun
My morning sun is the drug that brings me near
To the childhood I lost, replaced by fear
I used to think that the day would never come
That my life would depend on the morning sun...
I feel so extraordinary
Somethings got a hold on me
I get this feeling Im in motion
A sudden sense of liberty
The chances are weve gone too far
You took my time and you took my money
Now I fear youve left me standing
In a world thats so demanding
I used to think that the day would never come
Id see delight in the shade of the morning sun
My morning sun is the drug that brings me near
To the childhood I lost, replaced by fear
I used to think that the day would never come
That my life would depend on the morning sun...