A big thank you to PizzaBabe, ZillaFag, AJ, Special Delivery Mark, Bob & Andy and anyone else I forgot to mention, for all the emails and voicemail's that I have received during the last few weeks. They have brought a smile to my face and made me laugh inside.

Depression is a disease. It is a chronic disease that you just have to learn to live with. The only way I can describe it is like...a permeating cloud of anxiety that lies below the surface of everything in your life. Your home, your work, your personal lives with others. It is always there, slowly sucking away at your energy to enjoy your life with yourself and others you care about.

There are times of remission, and times of great battles. This last "battle" has been especially difficult for me because of the amount of physical pain I have experienced living through it. I've had numerous migraine headaches and a lot of generalized fatigue. I have missed quite a bit of work. Also, I have had some personal bad news in the last three weeks that has exacerbated an already very difficult emotional period. All of these factors have made this "battle with the dragon", a very difficult one. Maybe the most serious battle I have ever had.

Still, being able to comprehend the seriousness of my situation, I started to take prescribed antidepressants again and return to psychotherapy, something that I vowed never to do again. It was a very difficult decision, but I felt in the end, it was what I need to do at the time for my own mental health.

I have to admit, I am starting to feel a little less anxious and melancholic. Which is a step in the right direction.

Thank you, again, everyone for your heartfelt wishes and kind words. It means a lot to me.

xxxoooo

Tigz .:.