Whither SilverDragon?


A status report:
Physical health:
Maybe at 85%. I still tire easily. The throat is still mildly sore. But the antibiotics have cleared up the sinuses.
Financial health:
Better than last month. But last summer with no income and a spending spree has left me in debt. Even now I'm not putting aside the money I should to live on this summer-- and that's if my current job were continuing.
Emotional health:
Much more shaky. I am discouraged and confused. I've been told by someone I trust not to believe my thinking right now, because physical illness may leave me vulnerable to depression.

No s***, Sherlock.

Right now I have no clear idea what I should do.
  • Teaching-- well, it's not like I've been completely happy there, is it? Many of the problems that I had in community college would be obviated in high school-- but what other problems lurk?
  • Back to software development-- my intelligence and background will get me hired. My ADD will get me fired-- that, or I will quit one step ahead of the pink slip. I've been through that more times than I want to think about.
  • Writing fiction-- I actually seem to be able to keep this up, when not ill and not looking for work. But it's a long odds, low payoff proposition. (see "Financial Health")
Some other options that have been nagging at me:
  • Trying for any kind of entertainment industry job at all (except editing). Problem is, that usually these are un- or low-paid positions for a while (see "Financial Health")
  • Sales. High pay, and all the literature mentions it as a good fit for persons with ADD. With an engineering background, I could get technical sales jobs that are hard for employers to fill. But I've never done that kind of work before, and it would leave little leisure to take cinema classes, I fear.
  • Day trading in the commodities market. Don't laugh; I wrote a simulation of this once, and understood the financial mechanisms better than the designer. But then again... (see "Financial Health")
Not directly related to work:
  • What about my filmmaking? Where does that fit?
  • And what about trying Yet Another Non-Drug ADD Ameliorating Thing? ($400; well-recommended; but see "Financial Health")
  • Failing that, what about an accountant? and/or a life coach? (see "Financial Health")

My head is exploding and I can't sort it all out. I don't know what to do next.

I think I'll just get some sleep before my class tomorrow morning.


Posted: Sun - January 22, 2006 at 09:51 PM   | | | | |

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