Do - Dezember 9, 2004

Mi - Dezember 8, 2004

Di - Dezember 7, 2004

one more

I thought to myself, ho very unlucky if I had had an accident on my way back. Not only would an accident be bad in itself, but my one fixed pupil would have suggested a serious brain nerve damage to the emergency doc. W.o.n.d.e.r.f.u.l.

Oh yes, you guessed right. I just put this up here for it's terribleness. Why should only my eyes hurt?

Oh, and HAPPY NIKOLAUS to you! I got lots of yummy Lindt chocolate today. Ha ha ha!

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Examination lessons

Yeah. The wonders of Belladonna. How very much headache it can cause when applied in one eye only. And said eye is being inspected by six people. Meaning brightly shining flashlights non-stop. Say three hail marys and close your eyes, please -_o;;

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Fr - November 19, 2004

Do - November 18, 2004

Tomoe lookalike

What the heck! Me as ratty Tomoe-lookalike. I don't even *like* her. She's boring, her hair is boring. But I was first reminded of her, although I never paid her any attention. Then I took the wig off =)
Wigs are evil. Beware.

Bejaysus, why do I look like a ragged punk? It wasn't that bad in reality, but then trying to stuff lots of hair under one wig and keep it up there explains the hint of exasperation.

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To cut or not to cut

It's time again I suppose... One time a year I get this phase where I contemplate cutting my hair, and I mean cutting it drastically. But then I never do it, and I never had it done, and... I just don't *know* what i could do with it -_-;;
Basic obstacle besides my lack of decisiveness: I do *not* trust the hairdressers. Nope. Never had to until now. I nearly lost it last year, when I met a trustful hairdresser in Caloundra, QLD... but I didn't decide spontaneous, and later on we had no time to go back again. That was the only time I thought someone had the right idea about what to do with my hair. Not that it isn't good the way it is, I mean, it's great: long, smooth, nice colour, not too frizzy, yada yada. Although it fits my character I can't help but think that a short cut would fit as well, or ven better?!? The way it is now it's just one well groomed horse tail.

Mou -_-; Today I had it again, the every-year-crisis, and I fooled around with my hair, taking some pictures. More by coincidence I found something that *I* think suits my face quite good, only to later discover that it's a mix between Naoe Nagi and Schuldig (from Schwarz; Weiß Kreuz. Man, I love Schuldig. Who could guess that the hairstyle I improvised would be so close to his? I didn't intend so, it just happened!). I also played with a thai wig and it had a hint of the young Hitokiri Battousai (from Rurouni Kenshin) when knotted in a high samurai ponytail; but relax, I'm not going to wear that in PUBLIC =P

Oh no! It looked so GOOD! And it's really close to an anime cut, which isn't a bad thing in itself, unless it's going to be bright peppermint green or purple coloured. (I'd personally go for natural or red, or at least red highlights. Consider that I've never messed with my hair. Dye? Good beewaaaare!). I like asian hairstyles, because they fit me well, just like chinese clothing does. Usually my appearance is neutral, people don't suspect me as partly asian unless they see my long braid or have eurasian friends and know the looks. Surely a certain hairstyle would accentuate my asian for good.

Strangely, it has been this way since years, maybe since late puberty. I said goodbye to my bangs in 6th class (cutting them back would make me look like twelve now, mwuahaha). Had frequent curiosity episodes for very short hair (saw the tough grrl in Alien 2 or three, the marine), but it wouldn't have been good to look like a militant feminist or a "Kampflesbe", ne? Until I turned 20 I let it grew longer even. Then I got rid of the puny ends and since then it has been that way it is now. Lternating between waist and hip length.
I always wanted a radical short cut, but lacked the will to risk it. After all the wrong cut would result in utter horribleness. I wished I had an asian hair cutter... they'd know what I need, I need someone who knows what to do to make it perfect.
So will I do it now? Will I? Nah, most likely not. But maybe it would be good...? Maybe just bangs again, for starters? Hell, I look like what?15 then?

Feeling sulky now.

Why not check it out here! Advice and opinions appreciated.

<-- doesn't that suit me? Does it? Hmm?

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Mi - November 10, 2004

Do - Oktober 21, 2004

sano/yahiko gif quickie

Didn't clean this one up. Might do later. But I like how Yahiko starts chewing on Sanos hair when he's upset with him. Asian humor, ne?

Some cute Weiss Kreuz chibis (not mine - credit to whoever deserves it):
Yohji


Yohji, Aya, Ken, Omi of "Weiss"

Geesh, I've spent hours yesterday to make Kenshin icons, Why don't I have a cinema display to enjoy them fully...

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Di - Oktober 19, 2004

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boring. day

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turned out annoyingly crappy -_-;;

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Sa - Oktober 16, 2004

Eh he

Stupid me, I thought it was Sunday already and I'd need to go to uni tomorrow. How relieved I am now, a whole day more to have myself called lazybones

Guess I should really stop my holiday habit of getting to bed after 4 AM and not getting up until 2 PM. Feh, it started with sleep from 2 AM to 11 AM while learning, but somehow it shifted dramatically in the last weeks. Maybe I just have to stay awake tonight and start a reasonable sleeping habit tomorrow. I simply love holidays!

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Fr - Oktober 15, 2004

Nandayo..!?!

~ smoothly translates from japanese to english as "what the hell...!?!" Insert fuming Sano growl here ^ ^;; ~
Although I won't need this category daily, it'll hopefully hold the boring everyday-stuff in a neat stack.
I just wanted another category because my main is already so stuffed up. And I'm sorry for the bad icon, but RK insiders will recognize it anyway, heh, it's just my current favourite.

Just wasted a large pile of paper and too much of my precious time to print out topics, overviews and other stuff relating to the next semesters. Don't want to appear pessimistic, but that sucks. Oh well, I admit... maybe I am making the pessimistic part up - it is good after all, I'm just so not looking forward to reading that stuff now. Actually, I have been in a bright and lighthearted mood since yesterday, realizing I regained my freedom, hehe! The chains of my study will come back down on me on monday, but I take it easy 'til then.
NOW it's just so cool and strange in some sort of twisted way - finally (!!!) the complex yet undefined weirdness of the last months resolved, all remains vanished (got my certificate today), and the clear blue sky is literally showing again. I'm more than content, to say the least, with my recently verified conclusions:
1.) People are easily influenced, even by blogs *feral grin and amber glare*. Some more than others. Shows how important the media are. I won't use the nasty and totally misunderstood term of manipulation here, ne? *cough*
2.) If you want to make someone believe something you tell (wether true or not, doesn't matter), there are two ways; tell a lie, pretending it's the truth. After being found out, adjust your tactics to type 2; tell the truth and trick the subject of your talk into believing you were lying, thus causeing them to believe the opposite. Can be used in combination or isolated, works like a charm! I know. From more than one occasion. See (3) for more
3.) Women are sly, and wicked (but not in an evil way). All. Especially if you don't suspect them to be. How much they are towards you depends on how you treat them. Not all is what or how it seems at first. If you want to get a certain effect, but you don't want to invest the actual effort to do so, make the impression you did things (when in truth you didn't) but let your target in the dark about if you really did it. The result will be that of insecureness about what happened or did not happen, and you can finally lean back without having done anything, despite causing the effects you wished. Lack of certainty is gnawing on the long run, believe me. It's an art to inflict. If you didn't understand these implementations and think it's all bogus, I'm afraid you're running genetic code XY. Sorry, wrong operating system, you can't be helped ^_^;
4.) Age does make you wiser. Some less than others, and some definitely later than others *lopsided smirk* Won't go into the well known biological facts here.
5.) To burden yourself with someone immature is not a good idea. Let go quickly when your instinct tells you (well, it does have a reason if it won't stop screaming at you desperately) unless you're the weak girly type and long to suffer by your companion's inner fight of indecisiveness and self-questioning ... today's XYs are such sissies -_-;;
6.) Strong minded women who know what they want, and besides, know what they don't want, still scare off unexperienced prey. Guarantees phases of lone wolfing but turns out quite entertaining when you get the chance to watch someone being unknowingly unable to handle it! Or is it rather sad? Don't expect to be waited for until you grow up. So much to maturity *chuckle*
7.) The "take the package or leave it" motive rules; don't intend to make major curtailment except for appropriate places. For me personally I take that staying wild suits my character best - it's more fun than being sedatedly mild. In the nonchalant way. After all, I want to stay the one who determines where I go. Honestly, it feels like I went through nothing else in the last nine years (!) than always feeling obliged to consider another person in every choice I'd make - wait, that's actually acurate -_-;; how sad de gozaru yo! It's making me queasy and stubbornness wells up at the plain remembrance. I don't need to be taken care of by a "helping syndromist" and already quit being one.
7.) There are discussions that are constructive and those that simply lead to nothing. Frankly, everyone seems to engage in the latter while growing up - when they love those useless stretched out talks that end in no conclusion made and no insight gained whatsoever, but eventually you get over it! When I was in that age I was told by someone experienced that it would wear off, with age and gained insight, and guess who didn't believe it. Have luckily gotten over it a couple of years ago and now understand what she meant. Waste my time when I already see it's futile by foresight, just to discuss on principle? Hell, no, I've better things to do now, and I have done that plenty in the past! Such talks just bore me, and being bored means I get impatient and aggressive with increasing time (=closer to Saitou mode = not good). I'd never refuse a good discussion though.
8.) Finally I can say it: life's so good!!! Too good to be wasted with worrying about the wrong stuff. Nonchalance does require a certain amount of experience though. Never thought I'd be on the giving and not in the receiving end of this, but here it comes from the bottom of my heart (=right ventricle, thanks): r e l a x and take it easy, for god's sake! Or what you say Down Under: No worries, mate! Life is so full, and this is not the most tricky time, it's just the present. Believe me; there's always a chance it gets more complicated.
9.) Friends are to be treated with respect, concern and care. Be thoughtless, tactless and rude, and you can kiss their asses goodbye. Don't fool around with the ones important to you, you might lose their respect quicker than you can say sorryididntmeantobutimjustsostupidletmeexplain. You take care of each other, else it's just an acquaintance. And not everyone is easily forgiving nearly everything as I am.
~~ I am aware that this list kinda trails off pure conclusions, but I don't really care. And in the future I might restrain myself again from using the manga forum's freestyle form and find back to a good style, without smileys, insertions and stuff. It's the last days of my holiday, so I don't want to start editing and actually have work yet *shrug* ~~
10.) OT: On some anime lover's page, hosting translations from japanese to english, a comment was made that japanese people seem to like the multiplied exclamation mark. Yes, I believe all asians do!!! Wild gesticulation and mimics, too. It's in the genes, ya know. Call it the four wheel drive of communication.
11.) To have eccentric traits ain't gonna hurt. To have a lively phantasy doesn't, either. Better than a a stick up your ass. Living in dreamworlds from time to time is fine with me as long as no-one ends up locked away believing to be napoleon. //Saitou agrees and gives his infamous smirk// Oh, he word "sociopathic" makes him yawn, too. I wonder if boring him to death justifies Aku. Soku. Zan. I think he just luuurves his Katana a bit too much, ne? But he might as well feel flattered.
Yare, yare, I wouldn't approve of his smoking habit, but then, after all he's just a Manga character and I'm not crazed out enough to scold someone made of ink.



Note: Rurouni Kenshin obsession still not wearing off, just shifting characters. Obviously. *Sigh* One must love the bad guys with some traces of good when the good ones start boring you.
I like above picture. The wolf of Mibu's my new pet. Good insides wrapped in a neat cloak of evil. Okay, maybe he's rugged, but he's just been playing.

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