In short


"And in the end, as the last few corpses lay rotting..."

I'm pretty much done being blamed. I'm pretty much done sitting still and then being told I'll have to step up and take responsibility. I'm pretty much worn the fuck out. I'm sick of the whole model of reality in which I am the evil-doer who is about to pull the plug on the baby's life support even though such vailant bla bla bla have been done. Yes, sure, fine, good things may be afoot. Fine. If they are good, they will be good. Great. Ok. Enough already. I'm not a hostage.

I'm tired of being raped. I'm tired of being a badguy for moving if I don't want to be raped. I'm tired of holding my tongue to make sure things are kind and nice and not cruel. Fuck that. No one is watching out form my anything, so why am I walking even as lightly as I have. If you are saying that is ironic because I've been a right-asshole in how harsh I have been...well, just know that you HAVE had the watered down version.

I'm done. No more unhealthy seeming posts. Oh, sure, I'm gonna keep the bright lights on. But, for me, and those who need me...I'm going to take care of this. I can't exactly sit around telling others to do what is right and then not do it myself. I have kept looking for the 'out' and keep making it worse.

My GOD what a rambling entry. I think I need to post the bits individually from here. But, here's to doing what is right.

Take all you can, and give nothing back.

Posted: Tue - November 11, 2003 at 10:52 AM      

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