Thu - November 20, 2003
Slacks Marin
"One day aba-de bottom a-will
dropau."
Thursday night. Game night. Then to Ray and
Sophia's house. It is time.
I have
been in need of a name for the guy who does dark things. Now I have several.
Slacks likes games.
Posted at 08:14 AM
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Sun - November 16, 2003
Come on over to my house
"You're full of shit Carrera, that
was a fist that hit you."
I realized that there are some very distinct
characters in my life. I was thinking about Ron and sorta came to feel sorry
for him. I mean, except for character deficiency, he is far lower on the
"advantage taking" scumbags. In fact, I am starting to think he is just a
victim to himself as much as anything. Sympathies are running thin,
though.
Then there is Michael. He's a
sorry example of a guy. I mean, Mr. Blueballs is just a guy who wanted to get
laid. He's not out to ruin anything really except in that he isn't exactly
concerned with anyone but his dick. He's cheating on his girlfriend (or trying
to), he's taking advantage of someone in a tough spot, and he probably knows
little or nothing to really have the huge stopsigns that civilized people have.
I mean, that leaves aside the lame comments to his girlfriend to cover the
tracks of his actions.
But, the king of
all assholes in my world has to be Ray. Here's a guy who has acted within the
bounds of trust and who has managed really to simply service his dick. He's
acted in full knowledge of the state of the recipient of his kindness and has
pushed ahead anyway. He has ignored and manipulated the wishes and feelings of
his partner so he could get off. There really isn't a better way to put
it.
Ray is the kinda guy who wouldn't
just take something offered to him. He is the kinda guy to build towards
something hazardous and damaging to someone else. He is the sorta guy who is
really least of all to be trusted. Tricky thing is that he'll come back at it
and pretend that there was some deep or metropolitan motivation behind his
lecherous fucking. He's actively self centered and willing to harm others to
get what he wants, no matter how deep a thing that is. It is amazing that I
know of someone like this. I mean, I didn't realize I did. I always thought
that people like that were just in stories or
exaggerations.
So, here's to you Ray.
You are hereby crowned the biggest asshole. I do hope you get an opportunity to
experience that level of betrayal by a friend of yours. I hope you confide in
someone, trust someone, and lay it all out for someone who tells you that s/he
is there for you. And then I hope you get royally fucked over.
Or..maybe I can see to it that an
opportunity arises.
Posted at 07:22 PM
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Sun - November 9, 2003
Game theory
Someone might not specifically be
telling the truth...
Lemme get this
straight...
Ray says he can screw
anyone he wants as long as Sophia doesn't hear about it. He says that she and
he have an "understanding" like that. He indicated that she doesn't care, "as
long as she gets what she wants."
What can we get from
this?
Now, let's stay away from what it
means if Ray is outright lying. I mean, if he WERE lying, he'd be selling Sophia
out as a common slut who simply wants to be taken care of no matter what the
cost is. He'd be indicating that he does what he wants and thinks she won't
find out because he has said the only rule is that he not tell her about it. If
he did THAT he'd be a real scumbag and she'd be a real sad piece of
shit.
No, Ray MUST be telling the
truth. He can screw what he wants and Sophia is fine as long as the bills are
paid and she isn't troubled with insane husbands or girlfriends making a scene.
Or maybe it is that she doesn't want to hear the
details.
Why would that be? I mean, is
she that bad in bed? What is the exact reasoning for the need for such rules of
open engagement? Does she outright admit that she sucks in bed? Is Ray saying
as much to her by pre-clearing this "fuck anyone" option?
Curious.
I wonder if Sophia has the
same option. Does this mean that Ray sucks in bed too? Are we witnessing a
call for volume for any particular reason? If Ray isn't satisfied with Sophia,
why the hell would he want to pay her bills for her in exchange for mediocre sex
only?
Of course, I am being so
un-metropolitan here. Ray and Sophia are clearly two adults making decisions
based on exceptionally open thought. They just like to fuck and know that more
is better, right? But, why would Ray say it was fine as long as Sophia "got
what she needs" like that? That doesn't seem very
kind.
In the end, my favourite part is
the complete lack of concern for disease. Oh, if all the parties knew what I do
we'd probably have a more interesting time all around. But, the thing with all
this "open minded" fucking is that it clearly isn't fully open.
I mean, there is a little something
you might want to know Sophia...
Ray,
her doctor will tell her if you don't.
Posted at 07:21 PM
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