Thinking points


"How about their legs? They don't need them."

I was thinking about everything. I have tried to do what Feinman does (I'm reading his book these days) and reduce everything to just what we know...not the names of the things. I'm trying to look at the bird, not learn the name of the bird in three languages.

So, Ron got drunk and fucked my wife. I know I can't talk about his feelings for her. I don't much need to. But, he at the very least got drunk and fucked my wife. Then he called her any number of mean things (suggesting that SHE is the slutty one who tricked him...never his fault). Then, he stopped talking to me altogether. I'll stop with why that seems odd, but for a guy who is so clearly not at fault, he is sure walking the long way around even regret that it happened.

Or...is he angry?

Yeah, he's probably angry. Poor guy. I expect that is why he had such a long after-relationship to try to help my wife understand why she is in need of his widsom. I'd do that if I were angry. I'd probably, like Ron did, castigate Janet for disclosing (what he called) a "lover's affair"...he's so poetic!

In the end...again...what do we KNOW? Not much really. I know Ron has a little dick. I know he is less hairy than I am. I know he was too drunk to finish. I know he doesn't worry about safe sex, neither does Ray. I know he thinks he has it all under control.

He learned so much with Curtis killing himself. I used to be moved by this idea. But, I wonder if Curtis had called before he killed himself, if he would have called HIM back. I wonder if that is just the tough love that Curtis needed.

Who knows, maybe Ron helped back then too. I'm not saying anything is his fault. He'll tell you he has none. I'm just trying to sort out what I know...and I know Ron has been really helpfully stern with all he has learned from his friend killing himself.

Too low? Nah.

I have had friends kill themselves. It has changed who I am. I don't ever take it lightly. I don't ever mind being made the fool when I take the 'bait' of a possibly unreal threat. See, messing THAT one up...being wrong just once...well...it is expensive.

Ron ain't paying any bills though....wait...maybe I have one or two for him.

Posted: Tue - November 11, 2003 at 11:05 AM      

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