Stand.
They closed the mountain on me. It was my first
day snowboarding and it takes me forever to learn, so much so that I was still
slipping and sliding down when the mountain closed. They sent someone on a
snowmobile out to get me and he found me sitting down, all the strength gone
from my legs. He got off his snowmobile and got me on my feet and as I started
to slide forward I was so tired that I just sort of sagged against him and he
trotted awkwardly alongside me keeping me upright while I slid forward. After
20 feet of that he stopped and said: "I can't help you all the way down, you
have to stand up on your own."
So much
of life, we lack the courage or the will or the strength to stand on our own.
If only we had help. If only he had someone to follow. If only we things had
been a little easier. Unfortunately, life isn't a reality TV show, no one
shows up to force us to be who we're supposed to be. Help is all around us, but
in the end, the will, the thing that gets us off our butts and into the
studio/gym/stage/slopes comes from us or it does not come at all. No one can
walk us down the slope. Dreams are made and forged not in a day, but day after
day. It is our own daily battle to choose between the things that take us
farther from our dreams and the things that take us
closer.
Fight
well.
from the song one
more:
It feels like I have lost this
fight
they think that I am staying
down
but I'm not giving up
tonight
tonight the wall is coming
down
I am stronger than my
fears
this is the mountain that I
climb
got 100 steps to
go
tonight I'll make it
99.
one more, we can go one
more.
UPDATE: since you asked, here's how
the story ended: I eventually made it down, completely exhausted. The place was
closed and somehow I had lost my locker key. When we found someone who could
open the locker it turned out to be a cute girl who was sweet about it and I
would have tried to impress her except that my tired legs gave out when I tried
to hand her something and I fell against some chairs knocking them over. That
actually summarizes much of my dating life.
Posted: Tue - August 12, 2008 at 11:01 AM
