Echo . . .

Reflection on my Christmas experience this year.


Back to blogging. This holiday season seemed to me like a series of echos. We have been rushed this year, and as I think about it maybe more so than any other year. So rushed we didn’t put up a tree. The Christmas reminders were a few cards from friends and family. You might be thinking depression or apathy? No, not depression nor apathy. Just rushed, out of time, maybe out of desire. I wonder if this is what it is supposed to be like when you reach your almost mid-forties? The acceptance of the awareness of so little time?

And there are many that have good reasons to be depressed or apathetic. Echo: economic, health, military deployment, divorce, possible lost job, struggling relationship, death, out of work, grief, unbelief.

Maybe it is my inner rebellion acting out against the rush of bell ringers, food, Christmas carols during advent, and Christmas. There are so few places I can go here where Christmas isn’t in the stores before trick or treating is over. I have often wondered if we can be thankful when we race toward our Christmas fix like there is only enough for the first seven in line. These are echo thoughts from the past.

On Christmas eve I’m standing in the pulpit in the congregation where I was ordained echoing words from the story, “Do not be afraid. Behold, I bring you good news of a great joy that has come to all people. Unto you is born today, in the city of David, a messiah, the Lord . . . and there appeared with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God saying, ‘glory to God in the highest heaven, and on earth peace among those with whom God is pleased. Silent Night didn’t boom in the voices as much as the glow of the candles filled the sanctuary. Either the propaganda sunk in or it really was a more subdued holiday.

For a brief moment the echo of my infancy blurred across a screen as we laughed at my struggling to take first steps. There were faces I haven’t thought about in a long time flashing by with silent smiles and waving hands. Super 8 movies are a distant technology that hold images, memories. Then, the projector stopped working.

There is uncertainty that echos to us from distant times. Some ministers will go overboard with hope, painting everything with broad strokes. I wonder if ours is the task of mirroring, pausing rather than patronizing with the Christmas/Easter fix. The credit junkies showed us that there can be too much of a good thing.

So, as 2009 begins I’m committing to my blog again, weekly if not daily. I don’t want to just be an echo chamber. That would be a good title for a blog.

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