christmas dilemma

It is overly dramatic to call it a second Crusade, but devoutly religious people are killing each other in the name of their god be it a system of philosophical beliefs, economic system, black gold, tribal history, or shade of skin color.

“Can anyone tell me what Christmas is really all about?” These words of frustration made famous by Charlie Brown have woke me up for several days now. These words, the piano music from the cartoon, and a montage of faces who are important to me.

The rational part of the brain knows how to explain it. This is partly grief. This year three persons whom were important to me died. Two former professors and an uncle. The thought of these people has bubbled up faces that had melted from memory though not forgotten, but not thought about either. Maybe that is what cues the emotion that I can’t make go away. I have accepted that these persons now live in my memory and through the laughter and tears of family and friends, but that is head stuff that the heart of late seems to ignore.

This is partly cynical anger. All around us the world is coming apart at the seams and all we can do is shop and be entertained. It is how we cope in the Western post-modern world. I don’t believe in guilt, but I have wondered if this is a type of survivors guilt. People die every moment around the world in cruel ways, for unjust reasons, and of late because how they worship God. It is overly dramatic to call it a second Crusade, but devoutly religious people are killing each other in the name of their god be it a system of philosophical beliefs, economic system, black gold, tribal history, or shade of skin color. I am but one voice in a sea of shouting. What can one voice do in our world anymore? Am I, are we, any less responsible for tolerating the Crusade because fuel, food, clothing, and entertainment are cheaper? What am I, are we, prepared to do about it? Nothing. Nothing that can make a difference in the systems anymore. I grew up learning that one person can make a difference and that my sphere of influence would increase through the individuals that I came into contact with every day. And though there is some truth in this it strikes me as a way I, we, let ourselves off the hook for not making or supporting systemic change that benefits all of humanity.

This is partly authentic responsibility. I was ordained into representative ministry. My presence represents all of Christianity’s past, present, and future story. The good and the bad. Many brands of Christian witness treat Jesus as the next, best pharmaceutical fix with the occasional side effects: love God and love your neighbor as yourself. He has been engineered of late to tolerate the Crusade rather than speak and act out against it. It is not in the company’s economic interest to do so. Is the sentimentality of the season honoring his birth?

It is partly disconnection. For all the connection technology we are a disconnected bunch. Maybe that is why people come back to Church or Synagogue or whatever their winter celebration so they can feel, experience connection. And for we who claim Christian faith what are we asking people to do with that experience? Change their sphere of influence? Change the world? Wallow around in a sea of toys . . toys . . toys? My father-in-law, one of the faces, just wanted everyone at home and to get along. Just once a year that is what he wanted or thought Christmas was about. And mostly during his life that is what he experienced. He encouraged us to do more, but never challenged us to be more.

Maybe that is the dilemma that is waking me this Christmas season. Overwhelmed by blessing, burdened with responsibility, and frustrated with what to do. Maybe that is why Charlie Brown resonates.

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