AUTHOR’S
INTRODUCTION
"The whole of life is a predicament, complex and
prolonged; and the whole of mind is a cry, prolonged and variously
modified, which that predicament wrings from the psyche."
—George
Santayana
It had never been my intention to write the history of the Wolf murder,
for that sort of work has never appealed to me. Despite the fact
that
I knew both the victims and the suspect involved in the celebrated
case,
I resisted every effort on the part of my friends and my wife to
persuade
me to write a book about it. Recently, however, several
inducements
have at last softened my reluctance to undertake the work, the most
important of which has been my acquisition of Alex Nielsen’s
journals. After I
became familiar with these journals, I soon realized that the story of
the
Wolf murder contained even broader implications about the society we
live
in than I had previously thought. And since I, too, played a not
insignificant
part in the whole drama, who better to tell the story than
myself?
With Alex’s journals at hand to lead the way, I knew at last that the
whole
truth could be told. And if I wasn't willing to make the effort
tell
it, who would?
So many stories written these days, whether true or not, are
irrelevant, shallow, stupid, and hardly worth the effort required to
tell them. Most of our practicing novelists and many of our
historians and biographers seem more interested in prostituting their
crafts to the fashions and foibles of the moment, none of which are of
any significance to the great issues of
life. The literature of the present age is most decidedly a
literature in a very minor key. It consists almost solely of
inconsequential wisps and strands of trivialities, artfully knitted
together into patterns as meaningless as non-representational
painting. Form should follow content, but with our modern-day
technique-mongers trained by proliferating writing workshops and
inflicted on the world by publishers desperate for tax writeoffs,
content has been swallowed up by form and no longer exists. In no
age has so many brilliantly written, exquisitely crafted, but
substantively hollow books graced the catalogs of publishers; nor has
any age appeared rivaling ours in its ignorance of the essential
vacuity of its own utterly worthless literature.
Intellectual provincialism of claustrophobic proportions appears to be
the rule of the day throughout most of what passes for contemporary
culture. Since most intellectuals are more interested in puffing
up their gratuitous reputations or in avenging personal resentments
than in anything else, many of them are not even aware that there is
more to life than meeting “the right” people or acquiring tenure at a
university. As a result of this sort of obtuseness—a peculiar
species of blindness so typical of the spirit of our age—our entire
civilization finds itself on the verge of committing cultural and
spiritual suicide. And yet so miserable is our predicament, so
immense
is our lack of self-knowledge, that hardly anyone realizes that
anything is
at stake! Oh, to be sure, from certain quarters one hears, now
and again,
various dim admonishments urging us to mend our ways. But more
often
than not such warnings are merely the embittered cerebrations of some
disappointed
ideologue flashing like so much distant and noiseless lightening over
the
troubled waters of our culture. Such flashings serve no other
purpose
than to distract our attention from the deluge at hand. Imagine a
race
of sleepwalkers who cannot even conceive that there exists such a state
as
wakefulness but who nevertheless go about their business walking along
the
crests of steep ridges with dangerous abysses at either side and you
will
have an idea of our current predicament.
Several weeks ago, while visiting a bookstore in a nearby city, I
happened to run into one of these sleepwalkers. She was an
attractive, twenty-something young woman—bright, enthusiastic,
ingratiating, but incurably myopic and as
shallow as a surface. She had recently published her first novel
and
had been sent out by her publisher to promote the book. When I
ran
across her, she was trying to peddle her wares at a card table which
had
been set up for her in the middle of the book-store near the self-help
and
business sections. (I do not believe she understood the hint, but
that
is of little consequence.) I could see at a glance that the day
had
gone poorly for her. A large stack of books still remained, not
only
on the table itself, but on the floor around the table. I
wondered at
the folly which had sent this girl out into the cultural wilderness
with so
immense a burden. Feeling sorry for her, I sat down at her table
and
drew her into a discussion about contemporary literature.
From the start, it was obvious that she had never been exposed to views
like mine. They puzzled, disturbed, and annoyed her. On a
number
of occasions she was so baffled and offended by my remarks that it was
all
she could do to remain civil. But her desperation to sell a book
kept her in line. She could not afford to antagonize a potential
customer.
I was both amused and saddened by her plight. I suspect that she
did not entirely understand my views because she did not want to
understand them: they were far too threatening to her preconceived
notions. Although she no doubt prided herself on her liberal
open-mindedness, like most liberals, she was only open-minded
north-northwest; when the wind blew southerly, her mind was as tight as
a clam. And paradoxically, it was the fact that she was so
open-minded in some directions that caused her to be so close-minded in
others: for by taking such pride in the gaping openness of her mind on
one direction, she kept herself from realizing that her mind was
stuffed to
the gills with prejudices in the other.
There was something touching and pathetic in all of this, as there is
with any manifestation of mere faith. All her intellectual life
she had unquestioningly
accepted certain cultural views which had always struck me as extremely
dubious.
Taking for granted the health and vitality of contemporary literature,
she
never once considered the possibility that she might be living in a
cultural
dark ages. Confusing prestige with excellence, she assumed that
all
the novels written by her creative writing teachers were masterful
examples
of the craft of fiction and that all she had to do to succeed as a
writer
was to imitate them. Not once had it occurred to her that, if she
needed
models for her own writing, she really ought to be studying the
classics.
She had no understanding of the value of great literature. How
could
she? She had read only a handful of books written before her
time.
When I mentioned Stendhal and Dostoevsky, she did not know what on
earth
I was talking about.
The minute I began presenting my views to her, she had felt
threatened. Her first reaction had been to evade my comments by
attempting to change the
subject. When she realized I had no intention of letting her off
the
hook so easily, she ventured several feeble objections expressed in a
non-committal
tone, which I refuted with an ease that astonished and frightened
her.
She became irritated and peevish. She was angry because I had
called
into question those very views which she believed all decent and
respectable
persons absolutely had to accept. Yet because of her liberal
commitment
to open-mindedness and tolerating the views of others, she was ashamed
to
admit this to my face. Deep in heart she knew it was wrong to
allow
her beliefs to be determined by what her friends thought. But it
distressed
her to have to admit this to herself. It is always distressing to
have
to admit that one is afraid to think for oneself.
This sort of conformity of thought is a well known phenomenon in our
politically correct age. To go against the prevailing ethos of
the group violates one of the deepest sentiments in the nation's
psyche—the sentiment of democracy. The French aristocrat
Tocqueville, democracy's greatest critic, warned of the inevitable
result of the majority's tyranny of thought. “Fetters and
headsman were the course instrument which tyranny formerly employed,”
Tocqueville wrote; “but the civilization of our age has perfected
despotism itself, though it seemed to have nothing to learn.
Monarchs had, so to speak, materialized oppression: the democratic
republics of the present day have rendered it entirely an affair of the
mind. Under the absolute sway of one man, the body was attacked
in order to subdue the soul; but the soul escaped the blows which were
directed against it, and rose proudly superior. Such is not the
course adopted in democratic republics; there the body is left free,
and the soul is enslaved. The master no longer says, ‘You shall
think as I do, or you shall die'; but he says, 'You are free to think
differently from me, and to retain your life and your property, and all
you possess; but you are henceforth a stranger among your people.
You may retain you civil rights, but they will be useless, for you will
never be chosen
by your fellow citizens, if you solicit their votes; and they will
effect
to scorn you, if you ask for their esteem. You will remain among
men,
but you will be deprived of the rights of mankind. Your fellow
citizens
will shun you like an impure being; and even those who believe in your
innocence
will abandon you, lest they should be shunned in their turn. Go
in
peace! I have given you your life, but it is an existence worse
than
death.’’
All this is even more true today than it was in Tocqueville's
time. As a result of the fierce controversy between the Left and
the Right in this country, we are inclined to think that, when it come
to public debate, anything goes. It is normally assumed that the
tyrannies of puritanical thinking on the Right and political correct
thinking on the Left are simply manifestations of political extremism,
which is always tyrannical in nature. As one moves towards the
political Center, one is supposed to enter a realm of free thought and
tolerance for divergent views. This assumption, however, is sadly
out of tune with the facts. Even in the political Center, certain
ideas are neither respected nor even tolerated. Over above the
political
correctness of the Left there exists in all-inclusive political
correctness
which embraces nearly all political positions—Right, Left, or Center—in
American
life. The man who unwisely violates this all-inclusive type of
political
correctness is liable to experience all the effects of democratic
tyranny
as described by Tocqueville.
These remarks are meant as a sort of preparation for what is to
follow. My purpose in writing this book was not merely to
reaffirm what currently passes for right-thinking among the
self-appointed cognoscenti. On the
contrary, my intention has been to portray and perhaps elucidate a
certain condition prevalent in American society which, as yet, has not
received much notice by our professional intellectuals. That this
“condition,” as I have chosen to describe it, is not to my taste, I
will readily admit; however, this does not mean that my purpose in
writing this book is to attempt to change
anyone’s mind regarding this condition. What people decide to
think
of it is their own business; their opinion, one way or the other, makes
not
the slightest difference to me. All I wish to insist upon is that
this
condition does in fact exist.
But what precisely is this “condition” that I speak of? I see it
as a peculiar outgrowth of man’s sempirtnal hostility towards his own
nature. There have always existed a large number of men—usually
manifesting intellectual pretensions—who have loathed human nature and
wished to see it abolished. During the medieval era, this
abhorrence found its deepest expression in the
doctrine of original sin, which posited a human nature that was
unalterably flawed. The expositors of this doctrine believed that
only God could regenerate human nature; man was powerless to effect so
mighty a change. This pessimistic view of human nature, although
it might have led certain fanatics into some of the more dismal
exhibitions of asceticism prevalent during the middle ages, at least
had one saving grace: it helped people learn to accept human nature as
it is rather than waging futile battles against it in an effort to
alter it. This, however, would change with the onset of
modernity. Instead of accepting human nature as an unalterable
fact of reality, modern man would try to abolish it.
Modernity’s desperate revolt against human nature is largely
responsible for that peculiar condition which I seek to identify and
explain. In the ancient world, a brave attempt had been made to
live in accordance with human nature. Instead of waging a useless
war against human nature, most civilized men in the ancient world
accepted man’s nature as an unavoidable fact of reality. Thus in
that era of mankind it was understood that men are not created equal,
and the some men must command while others obey. Nor did anyone
feel resentment because of the unalterable imperfection of man.
Since the French revolution, this stoical acceptance of human nature
has increasingly become a thing of the past. Man’s conception of
himself has more and more become dependent on ideas hatched from the
brains of alienated and resentful intellectuals who think almost
entirely in terms of abstract rhetorical constructions and who
therefore know virtually nothing about reality. Out of this
rhetorical intellectualism arose a thoroughly corrupt and distorted
image of man and his happiness. According the cerebrations of
modern intellectuals, man was hardly more than a faceless abstraction
who could be
“improved” by the abolishment of perverse institutions and outmoded
conventions. Yet these, too, were also faceless abstractions
existing only in the heads of intellectuals.
The upshot of all this was a tremendous retreat from the natural order
of things. It was declared that all values had to be justified in
terms of utility, which itself was justified on a purely sensory
basis. This brought about an immense perversion in man’s scale of
vales. Value-judgements were made on the crudest basis, often
without any sense of the rich complexities of life. Base passions
more and more came to distort man’s conception of his place in the
world. Out of the envy of intellectuals arose the monstrous
specter of egalitarianism, the most unnatural doctrine of them
all.
The lust for equality swept everything before it, dragging all that is
lofty
and noble and sublime into the mire of plebeian small-mindedness and
fault-finding.
But nature cannot be abolished by mere ideas. Despite all the
talk
of equality and the “just” distribution of wealth and power, the
underlying
hunger for preeminence remained. Men could talk about the
desirability
of equality, but they could never bring it about, because even the most
fanatical
egalitarians thirsted for preeminence, even if it was only preeminence
in
their devotion to equality. What was worse, because men denied
what
was natural to them, they wound up turning nature into something ugly
and
perverted. In past ages, the better sort of men strove for
preeminence
in loftiness of spirit; now they strive for preeminence in bank
accounts
or adulation from the mob or in the number of women ravished. Out
of
all this has come the degradation of most of the higher ideals of
previous
ages. Chivalry and honor, piety and godliness, all became the
targets
of slander and small-minded abuse. People no longer believed in
higher
things. The world became ugly beyond all description. The
lowest
part of man’s nature took center stage, and everywhere life found
itself
reduced to the lowest common denominator.
What, then, is the condition of mankind in the present age? One
of immense degradation, involving the forfeiture of all that is lofty,
noble, and great. Man’s soul has succumbed to a sickness so
loathsome that even God has turned away from His creation in
disgust. Man no longer has the strength to face himself. To
ease his suffering, he blinds himself
with narcotics — which is to say, with recreation, consumerism,
television, hedonism, economism, careerism, ideology, utopianism,
resentment, and nihilism. Meanwhile, everything spiritual in
nature has become feeble or downright moribund.
Religion has been thoroughly vulgarized; literature merely recites the
trivialities
of the age in an absurdly self-conscious manner; music entirely lacks
inspiration;
science is without soul; art is either superficial or hideous and
obscene;
and philosophy has abandoned subtlety for sophistication and depth for
mere
cleverness.
Again, to repeat what I said earlier, I am not trying to convince
anyone that all this is bad. Obviously, I have no particular
fondness for it;
but if other people like things this way, I have no problem with
that. And certainly I am not saying that man’s condition at
present is all bad. Any form of society, however corrupt, has its
peculiar advantages, and I would
be the last person to deny the advantages of the present social
order. Only I would like all the apologists of egalitarianism and
utilitarianism and liberalism and all the other dubious creeds of
modernity to once and a
while acknowledge the immense price which have been paid for the boons
of
their social order. In order to bring about their preciously
hedonistic nanny-state, the progressivists of our time have had to
subvert all that is
lofty in spirit, noble in gesture, divine in contemplation, and
honorable in action. Giants once walked the Earth, hand-in-hand
with God; since then, the Earth has been over-run by horders of
resentful pygmies, wallowing hand-in-hand with Mammon. It is, to
my mind, truly horrible to contemplate.
The meaning of this horror, as reflected in the lives of real
individuals, is the central theme of my narrative—the raison
d'être of the entire work. It was Alex Nielsen’s journals
which revealed to me the extent to which the Wolf murder and most of
the events relating to it illustrate my deepest convictions about the
plight of man in contemporary society. There exists something
deeply dehumanizing within American society; and no where is this
dehumanization more widespread than in the nation’s universities, where
human beings are systematically exploited, brainwashed, robbed of their
dignity as individuals, and used as mere fodder to fuel the
ego-aggrandizing buffoonery of the most cowardly and despicable sort of
men.
Prima facie, you would expect the University to be the one place where
ideas would be taken most seriously and where respect for man’s
spiritual and intellectual needs would be greatest. After all,
the university is ostensibly dedicated to “higher” learning—to the best
that has been thought and said in the world. And yet many
universities would prefer to teach the worst that has been said and
thought. The humanities are especially corrupt. Literature
courses have increasingly been taken hostage by hordes of fanatical
deconstructionists and their multiculturalist fellow-travellers;
philosophy remains in the grip of sterile pedants spinning webs of
undecipherable symbolic equations lacking in any sort of earthly or
divine significance; and history has become “social” history — or
“history from the bottom up,” as one practioner of the obscenity
described it to me.
In the meantime, what has been lost in all this degradation and
mendacity is any sense or vision of man’s deeper potentialities.
In its place has emerged a vision of man as an extremely complicated
stimulus-response machine whose highest desideratum in life is to feel
good. Everything is to be sacrificed to this hedonistic
desidaratum, including the dignity of man. Man’s entire
spiritual existence is to be reduced to mere sensation. He is
once more to be transformed into a beast — though a gentle and kindly
beast at that. A touchy-feely beast, if you would — the dream of
academic leftists everywhere!
Everything I am writing of here, including the vulgarity of our
culture, the ignobility of modernity, the tyranny of group-think, can
only be understood by the mind if it can first be felt by the
heart. Unless you can feel it as an outrage against all higher
values, everything I have imparted here will leave the reader
cold. Now the greatest tragedy of our era is not
so much abysmal spiritual condition of man — although, to be sure, that
is
depressing enough; — no, what is really tragic is the fact that most
individuals these days are not even capable of realizing the extent of
their spiritual destitution — that they have become, in effect,
anesthetized to it, so that they cannot feel the pain of their own
emptiness.
This insentience, no doubt, has its merciful side. A man so blind
that he is not even aware of his own blindness probably suffers less
than
the blind man who realizes what he lacks. Yet we may wonder if
ignorance of one’s spiritual destitution can be justified by such an
analogy. Even if it is true that a blind man suffers less as long
as he remains ignorant of his blindness, this does not mean that it is
always better to be ignorant of one’s deficiencies. Perhaps if
our blind man realized that he lacked something of extreme importance,
then maybe his longing to see would encourage him to seek every means
possible to overcome his defect. After all, not all forms of
blindness are incurable. But in order to be cured, one must first
know that one is sick. Before a man can determine to make himself
a better person, he must first acknowledge the necessity for
self-improvement. The self-satisfied man, the complacent man, the
man of self-esteem who believes all is well with his soul — why, is he
not the blindest
man of them all? Of course he is. And what makes his
blindness
incurable is because he is insensible of it.
Needless to say, the purpose of this book is not to give comfort to the
spiritually vapid and the complacently blind. I have no interest
in
making people feel good or uplifting their souls — or, even worse,
increasing
their self-esteem. I am opposed to any sort of spiritual hedonism
which
insists that we should never offend for fear that we might hurt
someone's
all-too-tender feelings. When things are in a bad way, the only
proper
state of mind is to feel bad about it. That’s what bad feelings
are
for: to warn us that all is not well and that somebody better man the
pumps
before the ship goes down.
Although I seriously doubt that a mere book can change anything, I do
feel it is important to at least say something about what’s really
going on in this country. Even if nothing can be done about it,
at least the opportunity should be given to express our sorrow.
When a small animal is caught within the jaws of a carnivorous beast,
it lets out a wail of tremendous pain
and anguish. A philosophical bystander might wonder what the
purpose of so futile a noise could possibly be. Does the animal
really believe that his cry will save him from the jaws of the savage
beast who very shortly will devour him, bones and all? Hardly
likely. Even an animal as dumb as a rabbit knows that, once the
treacherous fangs have ripped into his inner organs, he is done
for. And yet he cries out nonetheless — cries out, not to be
rescued, or even to be heard, but because he has to cry out: something
deep within him forces the cry from his fear-constricted throat.
This book is my cry of anguish, my cry of spiritual devourment at the
expense of a voraciously vulgar and beastly society which detests
nearly everything I value. And although I know that few, if any,
will care to listen to
my shout of pain, shout I must. Something is very wrong with our
society.
Sinister forces have arisen which make it impossible for any genuinely
eminent
individual to occupy a place in the social order compatible with his
inborn
talents and capacities. Indeed, in some instances, we have turned
the
aristocratic standard on its head. All the honors of society go
to
man with ignoble hearts and shriveled souls and distorted vision, while
the
great-souled man is persecuted precisely because of his estimable
qualities.
Can anyone imagine a greater perversion of values than this?
But perhaps you don’t believe what I am saying. Perhaps you find
it impossible that some men in our society are persecuted for their
virtues, while others are rewarded for their vices. Very
well. You are entitled to your opinion. But I have one
question to ask. If, as you say, it is implausible to suppose
that anyone in our society is ever persecuted because of his virtues,
then how do you explain the fact that every
eminent and noble and great-souled individual I have ever known — and I
have
had the good fortune to have known several such individuals — has been
destroyed
by a society which despised them merely because of the beauty and light
and
wisdom which they wished to shine upon their fellow human beings?
Why
do so many people in positions of power in our society hat with a rabid
passion
any expression of genuine superiority? Why do they wish to
subvert
the natural order of rank, putting the worst on top while the best
languish
in obscurity and silence? When someone gives me satisfactory
answers
to these questions, I will say no more.
Before getting under way with my account of the Wolf murder (and all
the injustices related to it), it is only right that I should reveal my
principle sources. My primary source consists of my own personal
recollections of everything that happened during my final year in
college. I have also relied heavily on the aforementioned
journals of Alex Nielsen, the main protagonist of the whole Wolf-murder
drama, and also on the reminiscences of a police detective — who shall
remain nameless — who played a major role in the palpably corrupt
investigation of that murder. My wife has also been of great
assistance to me, as has Alex's former girlfriend, Melissa Brownell,
and one of his former professors, Christine O’Donnel. Despite the
assistance
of all these good people, I alone take full responsibility for
everything
written in this book, whether it be fact, fraud, or error. My
purpose
has never been to indite anyone or tarnish anyone’s good reputation,
but
merely to give as truthful account of the events leading to and the
consequences deriving from the murders of Professor Matthias Wolf and
Richard Talley. If anyone objects to my account of the matter,
they are perfectly welcome to write their own account. I have no
objection to opposing views. All I object to is hidden
agendas. My agenda, such as it is, I have no intention of
concealing. I expect the same courtesy from those who would
criticize this book.
NEXT: Prologue.