Tuesday Rambles, Sick Children and the Wide Web World ...


I've been meaning to do another 'May in my Garden' blog ... maybe now would be a good time, the sun is shining so I could go take those pictures, and the baby is ... uh ... WAS sleeping. Maybe I'll wait, do it this afternoon. Today is a day of do-nothing. Tobi-Wan and LittleD were sick yesterday afternoon, the lovely throwing-up kind. Today no one has thrown up, but they are still obviously under the weather. Tobi-Wan fell asleep on the beanbag after breakfast, and LittleD fell asleep curled up on his blanket on the floor. Now he's up, but glassy, pink cheeked, and not willing to smile for the camera, and Tobi-Wan has fallen asleep, curled up awkwardly, on Dale's chair ...

Both are warmer than usual and just not themselves. So far everyone else is healthy, but since we're not sure where or when we picked up this bug, we're not sure how long to wait to declare an all-clear. Although since it hasn't even been 24 hours since it started, we're certainly not to the all-clear yet anyway.

I let the older children do minimal chores and then watch videos, in honor of the sick children and tired mom. I've spent the morning skipping from blog to blog to blog ... wondering whether some of these bloggers all know each other, or whether they just all link to each other out of some trendy popularity thing, or some mutual reciprocity pact? But wandering from blog to blog I get out of my own little bubble, quick, and realize the web is a bigger, stranger place than I usually think of ... Most of my web time is either going to a few select boards or checking local places like the library and the weather, or shopping for things I'm interested in. I forget that there is a greater community out there, very diverse. Bitter discussions on religion, sarcastic and biting blogs, unhappy people. It's weirdest of all to stumble across the bitter people mocking Christians for being happy ... and seeing comment after comment after comment, all agreeing with the original post. Feeling like I'm a fly on the wall, observing a room full of people I don't know, who don't know me, who wouldn't care to hear my comments if I did post them, and feeling fairly inarticulate and sort of flustered in the face of their blasting. Eventually growing weary of the comments and slinking away feeling down. I wonder why the joy in Christ is something to be mocked? Does it seem unreal to those outside of it? Do people not believe that *I* truly have joy in my walk of faith? Do others see me the way these bitter bloggers see Christians? How does Christ's love shine through us? That's something I've never really understood, anyway, I can only cling to by faith ...

Well, one of my sick children wants to snuggle, and another is waking up, frowning his little 2 week old brow in his fitful doze, so I guess I better wrap up this ramble ... or just trail off ...

Posted: Tue - May 17, 2005 at 11:47 AM          

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