Well, neither am I. Fortunately, the Matrix movie has types for us, too.
Neo is sometimes a type of Every man...he has to search to find the truth, just
as we have to search.
But in both cases, the search is going on both ways. Not only is Neo
searching, but Morpheus, who has the truth, is looking for him. And God, who
has our truth, is searching for us. God's longing for us is far greater than
our longing for Him. He stands at the door and knocks...waiting patiently for
us. He seeks us out when we are not able to search for Him.
He also
tells us in Acts that He has sent us the Holy Spirit to guide and comfort us.
We might still struggle to understand, but He does everything He can to make the
struggle easier. In fact, it is usually not understanding the truth that we
wrestle with; it is accepting that truth.