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Misato: "Kaji, do you think I've changed?"
Kaji: "You're even more beautiful."
Misato: ". . . I'm sorry that I insisted on breaking up with you. When I said I had somebody else, you knew that it wasn't true, didn't you?"
Kaji: "No."
Misato: "It's just that I realized that you were a lot like my father, Kaji. And when I discovered I wanted a man like my father, I was terrified. I was so afraid. Of being with you. Of being a woman. Everything scared me. I hated my father, but I fell in love with someone just like him. I joined NERV to forget all that. Then I found out that my father had worked for NERV as well. So I tried to bury my feelings by swearing vengeance against the Angels."
Kaji: "That was your decision, Katsuragi. You don't have to be sorry."
Misato: "No! That wasn't a decision! I tried to run away. I tried to escape from the reality called 'Father'. Just like Shinji. I'm a coward. I'm sorry. . . . I'm only talking like this tonight because I'm drunk."
Kaji: "That's enough . . . ."
Misato: "I'm just a child myself. I have no right to say anything to Shinji --"
Kaji: "That's enough."
Misato: "I only allow myself to depend on a man in situations like this. I'm a horrible woman. Back then, Kaji, I may have used you! I'm so pathetic. I hate myself!"
Kaji: "That's enough! Stop it!"
Misato: "I can't stand myself . . . ." (Kaji kisses her.)