little bit of a kitten



there's this sharp pain in my stomach that I can't seem to get rid of... might have something to do with that hyperventilating I did earlier...

it's been a bad day.

our kitten (and yes, she is still a kitten, even 7 years later) has been on her last legs for most of her life. long story short, she came damaged, no one could fix her, and while we did our best to make the life she was allotted a happy one, it was well and truly time to throw in the towel.

the reality of hyperventilating is very strange... i kept thinking, okay, this is melodramatic. but i couldn't stop. i could either not breathe at all, or i could breathe really fast and hard. neither was doing much for the increasing numbness in my face or the swirling effect of the walls around me.

and then karen gave me a bag to breathe into.... and though i felt even more ridiculous (which i wouldn't have thought possible), it actually did work. go figure. tv proves its worth once again.

oh, my baby....

little bit was so very brave, and so very smart... she once picked up a quarter off a hard surface with one paw. she came to us so very tiny... and she never got big.

lol... scout's come to help. those of you who've met scout know this means she's come to yell at me.... now she's laying very near, purring very loud and doing kneady paws. (it's easy to make the mistake of thinking scout's bitchy. she's not. she can't help that her voice sounds like that.)

bitten is gone now... we felt her leave under our hands...

i'm thrilled for her that she doesn't have to hurt anymore...

i wish i could have made her better.

Posted: Mon - May 8, 2006 at 05:49 PM      


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