I Hate Salem, and all it's crap!!
Hope
you are all doing fine. I'm doing very lousy - thank you very much! I'll get to
Joe's crap in a minute, but first; an update on my crap!
I lost another job position I was certain (by 95%) was in the bag, by what three of the four managers had lead me to believe. The Shoe Mill in the Lancaster Mall. I went in to see the final manager yesterday, and he was not even aware that I had not been told that they had selected another candidate with more "Shoe" sales experience. I thought to myself, Shoe sales, schmoo sales - Sales is sales. "Hey, it's just #%@ shoes, not brain surgery" :D
I tell you, although I was not; initially overly delighted with the job position, I really needed it - and had convinced myself it was better than what I am doing now part time, and a little bit better than nothing. At least till I found something better, I thought it was better than a used car salesman by a notch. :D I was really surprised at my emotional response though. They more than told me the job was mine, I just needed to see Chuck, and then Whack! Right in the gut. Three weeks of waiting, then the Sucker punch! I had convinced myself in that three week waiting period that it was a job, and was beginning to get excited at the prospect of selling something; anything. At last, a job I thought!
I felt so crushed and defeated at that very moment Chuck said they had selected someone else. Like all the wind knocked out of you. Then if that was not bad enough, I had to go over to visit my crazy brother and listen to his mindless dribble. I was NOT in the mood - not at all. His new thing is he thinks or feels he will try to escape from OSH. He told me this before of course, but this time I lost it and read him the riot act. I was freshly mad off the job loss and in NO mood to hear his usual pile of crap. I basically told him, "Look at me Joe - you could think about it all you wanted, you could feel like you wanted to, you could talk to me about it till you are blue in the face - BUT (I told him ) - if you do it Joe; If you DO it; that is it - I will never visit you again Bro" I told him to think about that very hard because I really would stop my visits. I told him to stop focusing on the bad and look at the good. I then told him how he just got back from a coast trip and lunch at a restaurant. He now can play the piano every night if he wants etc. He has privileges now that he had to earn. If he ran now, he would lose them all. That he would get caught, and in very short time. That it was hardly worth the effort. I told him actually he now has more to do than I can. Of course I am not locked up with looneys either.
Then I felt a little bad at chewing him out (although the whining little shit needed it) He told me he is afraid of his latest health trials and didn't know what to do. Although I have talked repetitively with him on the subject, he has gone to his prison buddy for counsel on his latest medical problem before he makes a decision. Guess family is not good enough, and certainly not a medical Dr. - lets see, who else can I go too, Gee I know - I'll get counsel from a guy in prison! Yea! their smart, (?) they can steer me on the right path! (???) Shit! Wish I had a big scoop to dig all that crap out of Joe's head!
What his latest medical problem is if you were unaware is He needs Dialysis and surgical operations in his neck and arm for tubes to be inserted. Fun huh? He'd go in a few times a week for about 4 hours each visit. He's confused about so many things, and so tormented about so many things that his confusion is more than justifiable. He had a new Doctor talk to him recently about changing or upping his medication to help from hearing all the voices, but then Joe says he doesn't think they can stop the voices in his head because they are from GOD. Hmmm - why can't Joe ask God for counsel instead of a guy in prison?
Well enough whining, I have to go fill out another 6 month application for the OHP health plan insurance. Then I will renew my movie presentation freebie job I am doing for my former roommate (Herman) and his soon to be wife Joyce.
Have a nice day you all :D
I lost another job position I was certain (by 95%) was in the bag, by what three of the four managers had lead me to believe. The Shoe Mill in the Lancaster Mall. I went in to see the final manager yesterday, and he was not even aware that I had not been told that they had selected another candidate with more "Shoe" sales experience. I thought to myself, Shoe sales, schmoo sales - Sales is sales. "Hey, it's just #%@ shoes, not brain surgery" :D
I tell you, although I was not; initially overly delighted with the job position, I really needed it - and had convinced myself it was better than what I am doing now part time, and a little bit better than nothing. At least till I found something better, I thought it was better than a used car salesman by a notch. :D I was really surprised at my emotional response though. They more than told me the job was mine, I just needed to see Chuck, and then Whack! Right in the gut. Three weeks of waiting, then the Sucker punch! I had convinced myself in that three week waiting period that it was a job, and was beginning to get excited at the prospect of selling something; anything. At last, a job I thought!
I felt so crushed and defeated at that very moment Chuck said they had selected someone else. Like all the wind knocked out of you. Then if that was not bad enough, I had to go over to visit my crazy brother and listen to his mindless dribble. I was NOT in the mood - not at all. His new thing is he thinks or feels he will try to escape from OSH. He told me this before of course, but this time I lost it and read him the riot act. I was freshly mad off the job loss and in NO mood to hear his usual pile of crap. I basically told him, "Look at me Joe - you could think about it all you wanted, you could feel like you wanted to, you could talk to me about it till you are blue in the face - BUT (I told him ) - if you do it Joe; If you DO it; that is it - I will never visit you again Bro" I told him to think about that very hard because I really would stop my visits. I told him to stop focusing on the bad and look at the good. I then told him how he just got back from a coast trip and lunch at a restaurant. He now can play the piano every night if he wants etc. He has privileges now that he had to earn. If he ran now, he would lose them all. That he would get caught, and in very short time. That it was hardly worth the effort. I told him actually he now has more to do than I can. Of course I am not locked up with looneys either.
Then I felt a little bad at chewing him out (although the whining little shit needed it) He told me he is afraid of his latest health trials and didn't know what to do. Although I have talked repetitively with him on the subject, he has gone to his prison buddy for counsel on his latest medical problem before he makes a decision. Guess family is not good enough, and certainly not a medical Dr. - lets see, who else can I go too, Gee I know - I'll get counsel from a guy in prison! Yea! their smart, (?) they can steer me on the right path! (???) Shit! Wish I had a big scoop to dig all that crap out of Joe's head!
What his latest medical problem is if you were unaware is He needs Dialysis and surgical operations in his neck and arm for tubes to be inserted. Fun huh? He'd go in a few times a week for about 4 hours each visit. He's confused about so many things, and so tormented about so many things that his confusion is more than justifiable. He had a new Doctor talk to him recently about changing or upping his medication to help from hearing all the voices, but then Joe says he doesn't think they can stop the voices in his head because they are from GOD. Hmmm - why can't Joe ask God for counsel instead of a guy in prison?
Well enough whining, I have to go fill out another 6 month application for the OHP health plan insurance. Then I will renew my movie presentation freebie job I am doing for my former roommate (Herman) and his soon to be wife Joyce.
Have a nice day you all :D
Posted: Sun - April 23, 2006 at 01:30 PM
Quick Links
Calendar
| Sun | Mon | Tue | Wed | Thu | Fri | Sat |
Categories
Archives
Statistics
Total entries in this blog:
Total entries in this category:
Published On: Apr 23, 2006 03:52 PM
Total entries in this category:
Published On: Apr 23, 2006 03:52 PM