the world looks better through a cop car window...

yea..u can guess it, julia was arrested this weekend at starr's party..yeah...nice shit right there right? u know it. i went there thinkin i wasnt gonna drink really, cuz i wanted to watch everyone else look like total asses, but no..everyone there, the whole atmosphere...made me drink 2 TWO DOS drinks. and guess who gets in trouble, the one who drank the least among the drinkers. Yeah..and ben was there. he was either really sweet or really drunk but he came up to me and gave me this really nice hug and said "julia, i love u!" lol man, i wish he really meant it, but u know, drunk guys often tell the truth. lol i wish. anyways, Chance was all up on me when he was totally wasted and he's pretty hot..but hes kelly york's bf. lol or at least i think he is. he was at my house a few weeks ago and thats how we met, he hasnt let me live all that shit down yet, but now i have stuff on him :D haha let's see...yeah, lets talk about the part where i hid in a 3 foot storage crawl space closet. lol i was sitting downstairs and i heard the cops where there, so i stayed down there with sarah and randy and soon trevor came. Well, we were like "the cops cant search the house legally, so we're ok" well..wrongo, starr gave them permisson and took them on a tour. they end up coming downstairs after like 45mins and trevor and sarah push me in this lil closet under the stairs, where her family kept luggage. i sat there basically holding my breath and i heard starr say "this is just a closet where we keep lugage" and i thought they were walking away but no..starr opens the door. im just sitting there and i smile and say "hey starr!" and she's like..*laughs* "hey julia" the cop asks me if i had been drinking, i of course say no and he was like "then why are u hiding" and i said "cuz ur a cop and im scared of cops" lmao. he tells me to go upstairs and talk to the cop up there..i go and hes like "ooo hello! blow on this" and im scared outta my mind so im like freakin out on the inside and i give a lil blow and hes like "noo like this *big blow*" so i did..and everyone cracked up, according to josh hall it was a .2 well..now, then i heard i was the last to blow so all the alcohol residue was left in there from everyone else..i believe it i didnt have that much to drink. then hollis and megan screwed theirs up by like moving their heads and they both got to drive home drunk as a fuck. the cops let them leave cuz they were negative..and yet they were drunk. doesnt make sense. so the good people ended up with the tickets. lol yay for them. i got to call my mother at 2am and be like "yeah..the cops are at starr's and there was drinking..." and the cop talked to her. he brought me home at 3am and talked to my mother...she was furious. u should have seen her face. She made me called my dad at like 8am and tell him what happened, well first she told him and then he talked to me. he didnt sound that upset, actually i think he could have given me a high five..naw im jk. cuz now he has to take days off of work and come here to NC for my court date cuz my mom wants nothing to do with it. But at least he's gonna pay my ticket..yay. lol the whole $70, give or take a few which also includes court fees. SOOO...yeah, a lot happened and it would be impossiable to type it all. But everyone is in deep shit. I got to see ben..oh and the comment he made to me in the parking lot after the football game was "hey julia, if i get u drunk enough will u have sex with me?" and i just looked at him..what a moron. lol but then his twin syd got mad at me at one point during the party..not mad but frustated and said "GOSH JULIA WHY DONT U GO MAKE OUT WITH BEN?!" and it was kinda mean..cuz i was scared and thought he was ben but he wasnt ben, he was syd and it was dark and all i saw was a tall dude standing there, which looked like ben! dammit. sorry syd. lol so then..lets see...yeah. i saw ben. and chris and everyone else in the freakin world even the guy i used to have a crush on from the nail place, mihn!! lol he was on the couch with me when the cops were there talking to us all. lol how sweet. so, yea...

hey we won the football game!!! 40-12!! kickass! and oh that dude ive been checkin out on the football team, #42...his number isnt 42..its 43. lmao i felt like a dumbass and he doesnt look good all sweaty, but edwin does. lol i think im gonna tell edwin the hottest guy on the team is #66 haha and see what he says, cuz he's #66.

Everyone is worried that we will all be in the paper..we're all over 16, so they can put our names in there with our charges. great. and since it was at a dr's house with a bunch of kids from good families, then it makes even a better story. and yeah, all of the top students from the junior and senior class was there..and the school system's head honcho...but she left before the cops came and didnt drink..but man, everyone felt weird being around her and doing all that stuff, even the smokers. lmao. It's not like everyone doesnt already know about me and the others who got in trouble with the cops..and everyone knows about those who ran..so yeah, we're hardasses.

Nothing exciting has really happened since then. I prob wont get to visit lauren any time soon and i doubt i'll even be able to do the relay for life thingie..hmm maybe i can since i'll be with a church and my mom can talk to the church leader person of lauren's youth group. i'll talk to her later in the week about it, shes had a hard weekend, even without me screwing up.

My dad sent me an email today and it wasnt about me and the party it was about how i need to wear my knee brace (my mom told him i lied to her about wearing it to the game) and he was like "hey, guys like girls with pretty legs, wear ur brace" lol it seems like my brace is sometimes of a bigger deal than my court date.

hope ur having a good day lauern!!

*much love and candy*

#@$#^%*&^&$#@#$%***$%$#

nothing can show my frustration as well as a bunch of *shift key + numbers* can. Why am i so upset? lets recap my doctor visit...i went in with a smile on my face thinking "yay! i get my brace off today!! im so excited!! its been 5 freakin weeks and now i'll be able to wear JEANS and shirts that look only good with JEANS and real shoes instead of flip-flops!! and guess what! no one will look at me funny and ask me what i did to my leg and i can actually feel comfortable in front of hot guys (cuz come on..knee braces are so hot right?) and yay! no knee brace!" well..i go in there and im alllll excited, have like the biggest damn grin on i think anyone has ever seen. And i was sitting there warming up my knee so i could bend it back and straighten it for the dr to see how wonderful my knee was doing and how i dont need a knee brace anymore!! WELL...he didnt even really look at it bend...and he jerked on it a little bit and was like "yeah its still all snug in there" like what, are my screws suppose to come lose or something? well, guess what. i dont get to get my knee brace off...i get to wear it for 2 more fucking weeks. and then he left to go put something in my folder and i was sooo upset i just started crying. i mean, come on, i was so happy getting my knee brace on that it could have been counted for as an early christmas present. i mean...i was soooo HAPPY. like little beams of sunlight were coming out of my body. so then a nurse person assistant whatever they are comes in and shes talkin to my mom and she sees me crying and shes like "aww sweetie, u'll be ok" and asks about what he said, well obviously she goes back to the dr and tells him im all pissed off and crying, so he comes in and tells me to get my therapist to fax him my knee meaurements on my last appointment next week and he'll call and tell me if i can get my brace off or not a week early. but u know what, i doubt he fuckin lets me. he damn well better cuz i'll go sit in his office and cry some more. and my mom didnt help the decision at ALL. she was like "yeah, i never see her doing her excersises and blah blah blah and her school is all stairs and it's crowded blah blah blah" UGH i could have killed her. she like just ruined all chances of me getting my brace off. WELL then shes like "to celebrate u getting ur brace off in 2 weeks i'll go buy u a new pair of jeans" NOOO DAMMIT. I WANT JEANS NOW AND I DONT WANT MY BRACE ON. so as im thinking about it, i have tears running down my face cuz im so fucking mad and disappointed. anyways, my dad is coming to visit in like 3 weeks and i get all the damn jeans i want, so idk why my mom thinks its something great that shes gonna buy me a pair of jeans..fuck i hate this. i hate my fucking knee brace and i want it off NOW dammit. anyways...i told everyone i was getting it off and i was so happy...and now i feel like shit and have to cont. to wear the damn thing. u know, i NEVER EVER wear shorts and ive had to wear shorts for 5 damn weeks straight..wait, lets add about 2 more weeks onto that...7 damn weeks..until i get my jeans...life sucks ass.

moving on..tonites plans arent that bad. 1) football game! against east, but u know..i really dont even care if we win, i wanna go watch 2 guys play. muahaha and then 2) Starr's house. YAY! im prob not gonna do anything, but it might be nice since ive had a rough day...hmm...oh and im spending the nite since im a girl! (YAY) and get to hang out until whenever tomorrow, thats a plus. theres always stuff to do at Starr's.

Oh and if anyone thinks im gonna wear my brace to the game or Starr's is outta their damn mind. hello..do i ever wear it when i go out in public besides walmart and the mall? hell no.

anyways, gotta go, mom is yellin...ugh..life sucks ass once more

*much love and suckers*

LalaLalaLala

ok..so lets update!! isnt that so much fun?!

1- my knee hurts..bad..like its gonna rip apart and im gonna be lt. dan all my life.
2- today was alright..besides the fact im failing ap bio.
3- katie gets on my nerves with this whole andrew thing. shes always all over him and talks about how they flirt..its more like shes doing all the flirting
4- i talked to edwin while standing in line for lunch today. i didnt even know he had my lunch..shows that i sure do pay attention to my surroundings. i told him id go watch him play football friday nite. that sound be fun..i wanna know who number 42 is, hes a doll!! OMG i want him. lol as of right now..i wouldnt mind dating either one of the 3 guys ive picked out.
5- i noticed today that andrew j. isnt all that bad looking...for a red head.
6- mckenzie needs to stop reminding me of how im failing ap bio and writting I *heart* julia on the board in spanish and then putting an F in front of the heart and the word "on" afterwards, so it reads "i fart on julia"...yeah thanks mac.
7- i called lauren today, she seemed happy! thats always great to know..that shes happy. i played "carolina in my mind" or whatever by james taylor for her..it was great. lol shes in super study right now, i might call her and leave her a kickass song on her voice mail. :D prob will.
8- yay michael raider and andrew blood for scoring our only 2 goals in the soccer game tonite. yay.
9- im really tired..and i wonder what im gonna wear tomorrow..
10- i get my knee brace off tomorrow!! ive said it a million times already, but im excited
11- i go to rehab tomorrow..that sucks ass.
12-...yeah....ok i kinda like this numbering system i have going on for this blog. :D

Alright, im done with my numbers!!! i just realized something, its been a while since ive prayed. u know, i used to pray every nite before i went to bed..i did that for like maybe a few weeks, just like i use to go like at least 100 sit ups before i went to bed...all those things last only for a few weeks..anyways, i just suddenly remembered i havent prayed, i need to. but prayer isnt suppose to be a "gotta do it just cuz" ur suppose to mean it..but i do...i used to pray for happiness in everyones lives and that the best would come out in everyone..just happy thoughts. I will say a prayer before i go to bed...

fyi lauren, i am updating, dammit. lol at least, im guessing that was u. for u wish to always remain un-named.

I have a adj. and adv. test tomorrow in english, well not a test, just a "grammer check" and hmm..i need to study for AP bio. dammit, i just need to read over all my notes, but i cant freakin FOCUS. i need aderall or whatever its called. i think i seriously have a form of ADD. it wouldnt surprise me, im like always bouncing off the walls, does that count as hyperactive? hmm idk.

I get to get out of school early tomorrow!! at like 1:32..after 3rd period! yay no spanish test for me :D if i was smart i think i'd go ahead and go to spanish and stay for a little bit, but i prob wont be counted, i know i wont be counted, so im not gonna go..but hey, hes from panama, like he knows when to count me or not...but the office might do all that good stuff...so im not going. that means i would have missed hmm...5 days....one more and saturday school, but i think thats just per 6 weeks..wait, no, i think its per semester..idk..i'll ask. but all my notes are dr. notes so they can kiss my ass. who cares anyways. i have until christmas until the semester is over..dammit.

oh well, im out!! going to go talk to laurens voice mail and pretend to read ap bio notes and..yeah...

*much love and cold drafts*

off beat emotions

okay..where to start? a- lauren, i dont recall telling anyone about you and andrew and 2 am...i wouldnt want that to get back to katie cuz then there would be major drama..and i like my surroundings chilled..

school sucked ass today. it was just an everyday kinda thing. I did make the lowest grade in the class on my AP bio test..a kickass 33!!! WOOO WHOO!!! yeah..me and trevor made the same stupid grade, at least im not alone. but hey...i didnt know how to name all 20 amino acid STRUCTURES and i was hung over..REALLY bad.

I heard the stories about eric's weekend after the game...he brags too much. i swear to god, he came up to me like 5 times talking about it and i was like I KNOW ERIC I KNOW...

I've decided Edwin is kinda cute...he's not all that smart...but hes not totally stupid u know, ok..ok so maybe im just trying to find a brain in his head..but hes a cutie. he's tall and has dark hair and wouldnt hurt a fly and hes a varisty football player (ok..that just sounds good) lol but...theres dustin...and i really wanna see if that turns into anything at all. but tomorrow ive decided to tell edwin i think hes cute. lol be a complete random ass. lol :D

Let's see...oh yeah, katie. I've already complained about her...so im gonna make this quick. STOP HANGING ON UR EX LIKE THERES NO TOMORROW AND WRITTING POEMS ABOUT HOW IN THE END U 2 WILL BE BACK TOGETHER "CUZ THATS HOW ITS ALWAYS BEEN" HES SOOO MOVED ON..AND U HAVE A NEW BF!! PLEASE OH PLEASE..SPARE US ALL THE STUPID PAIN OF HAVING TO VENT CUZ IT GETS ON EVERYONES NERVES...OK IM DONE. thank u for ur time. it was well appreicated.

I hope everything works out with joey and lauren. she gave him the gumball necklace i got outta the chinese restrant machine. awww and he wore it! lol he's so cool. hahaha too cool for school even. haha anyways lauren, hit that! lol naw, take ur time..i think u truly like him and thats special.

i think thats pretty much it for today...oh and THE REAL WORLD i think premeres tonite!! yay that would be in like 30mins..im excited now! :D very, i love that show! OMG! u have no idea..well u do if uve known me for a long time or if u read my blog all the time..lol

Anyways, i gotta go call my grandparents cuz i need someone to pick me up from thearpy tomorrow..ugh rats ass. and i need to find something to wear tomorrow...yays.

love ya! and hope ya had a great day lauren! :D i'll ttyl! *hugs*

*much love and creepy crawlers*

Things to do in my life...#1. press play

Okay..my title was random ass, but hey, thats my life.

Lauren went back to school today. sucks ass. i told her goodbye yesterday thinking i would see her today, but i only got to talk to her...yeah...sucks. She has my leaf and my blue ribbon in her purse..take good care of my leaf lauren. lol

Recap of my weekend, which by the way, was pretty decent!!! lauren was home!! that made it all the better. :D Friday nite was the football game..we won, 21-7!! yays. I saw dustin..i've already written about that. and by the way, kaela is not supportive of that. She's like, "gosh julia, u've liked him, dated him, dumped him and all that shit since 4th GRADE can't you go find someone else?" yeah...i've found other people since that, but you know, theres still something to be said about crushing on the same guy u've known and crushed on and dated and dumped and all that good stuff since elem./middle school. ...high school is a better time to really "date" anyways..and hes single. enough about dustin. back to my weekend. Then saturday nite i went out to eat with all my friends and we were suppose to surprise lauren. well..dumbass zack didnt get her home in time for her own fuckin party and everyone was sitting around waiting for her and then he ruined the whole damn thing. it was still fun, dont get me wrong. but poor anna..i bet she could have killed zack. anyways, zack has been a total asshole lately and thinks hes in charge of every damn thing. hello..just admitt ur gay and take me to fucking walmart bitch. lol then we went to the goodlife cafe and watched will marion play guitar, for like the 2nd time this month..but we love and support willbo, so why not. then i spent the nite at laurens house and we had a kickass time. i talked to joey online and he seemed pretty cool. hes like a guy "me". lol it was pretty funny, we said some of the same things at the same time...im happy for lauren. he'll def fit in with everyone. :D :D all smiles. oh and BAD LAUREN BAD..NO BRETT. BAD!!! BAD!! ur so BAD!!! lol dont do it. joey loves u. so does jesus, and me too! Sunday i went to church with lauren and liz to again..watch will play guitar. he did a wonderful job. go will. we then went to eat chinese and that was kickass. yum...i had a great idea...chinese! Then we did the GREATEST thing in the whole wide world. we went to the park and laid out on a rock in the middle of the river...it was kickass. and we played on the swings and talked. Then we said goodbye. i hate goodbyes.

Liz and i went to the mall today just to goof around. we ate at CF Jones and i had a grilled cheese sandwhich, fries and a cotton candy milkshake. they told me they've never been asked to make that before...but yeah...gimme my cotton candy milkshake bitches. i also bought some new earrings, eye liner and nail polish..im so cool.

Lets see...anything else? yeah...i'm talking to todd simmons right now. he dropped outta school ..what a cool kid...yeah and i think liz is still crushing on him. she told me to get him and hook up with him..but in lizanglish that means "i like todd" lol she also likes justin..fun stuff.

i feel like theres more to be said...right now im talking to andrew. that reminds me, katie just told me her and andrew were gonna go paint at 1am. he drove by her house and she was on the roof..and they were gonna go paint, but her mom woke up. she still has feelings for him, but he doesnt have any for her. shes still gonna keep things going with matt. i wish andrew and i could go hang out for once. we've never been alone really together...well, i guess we will be when we go visit that bitch lauren. love ya L! :D lol

i wonder who KAT is too lauren...hmm..prob just a person like JKL or ACG. u never know.

I want a boyfriend...yes i do...i want a boyfriend, how about u? lol

"my life fits into a bubble DO DA DO DA my life fits into a bubble DO DA DO DA DAY!" i sang that as i played on the swings with liz and lauren..what fun.

Lauren, i hope ur having a great time back at school!!! you get to see all ur friends and be back in ur 2nd home. :D tell everyone i said hey...and dont be a chicken shit. :D i love u!

anyways...im cold and i need to check my email...

*much love and catacombs*

Me and Lauren....

yay! lauren is home..and guess what? shes sitting right beside of me!!!! right beside me! and shes weirded out by life...

we..or should i say "i" just talked to joey. yeah joey tha baby kangaroo. well, hes so in love with her and its more than obvious...lol hes really kickass though. i approve of him. we talked about how my pet fish is gay and lots of random other things. hes cool, i like him. we even use some of the same words and we said something at the same time..it was pretty cool. lauren has def found someone who will fit in with all of us and who is beyond awesome. :D im happy for her. :D all smiles. she really knows im smiling too..why?? cuz shes home!! shes right here!!! i can touch her sorry chicken shit ass!! lol as we eat mini chocolate dykes...ahhh the good times.

im not gonna write about how ive been mad at friends lately cuz im happy. lauren asked me on her blog how i stayed so damn happy. i hurt my knee again..i fell and there was the chance i could have torn my new acl, but i didnt do anything major to it, but it hurt like hell and got all swollen, but i still laughed..haha yeah its called "confused emotions".

i went to the ma/ns game..the biggest game of the fucking year. well ma won!! 21-7! yay kickass mayberry!! i saw ben and chris and we had a good time..we just talked. ben totally butchered my name in his cell phone..julia is know spelled juliea. wow. i talked to people i usually never talk to until recently. someone came up to me and hugged me and asked if i was ok from last weekend..his name is Chance and he works at the movie theather. i have no idea what school he goes to or how old the dude is, but hes HOT. yea..he was at my house. lol someone also asked me if i was the 'girl who had the party' i had no clue who they were either so i said "haha i dont remember.." yeah...good times.

andrew sleeps with boys...when he visits ncssm. lol yay. sterlin..like sliver?? sterling..there we go. hey!! hes an eskimo. kickass. i wonder if he uses his ear wax as lip balm.

back to the ma/ns game. i saw my ex bf from years ago. dustin. well..dustin and i were like good close friends back in the day with kaela and joey. (they dated) and we used to always hang out. he gave me butterflies all the damn time, then i started dating him and the butterflies stopped cuz i didnt have to worry about him..he was mine. :p well..then i moved schools and dustin and i never spoke really after that. but i saw him a few years ago and he didnt speak to me..he didnt want to. then i saw him again a year ago and his eyes lit up and he said "hey julia!!" and i had butterflies...then i was at the game last nite and turns out hes friends with katies new bf matt.yays!! thats good..anyways, i say "hey dustin" but i dont think he heard me really..cuz he acted kinda weird like "u freak, do i know u?" kinda thing. then i was all upset cuz i mean, i didnt know what i ever did to piss him off u know..so then a few mins later matt and him are talkin and katie and i had gotten lost in the crowd, but when we get up there i hear my name and matt had said "do u know my friend juia??" and dustin was like.."..julia julia...JULIA!" and when he sees me his eyes lite up again and he smiles...lol he just stood there and looked into my eyes for what seemed forever, but really im sure it was like 2 seconds...anyways, it was the best damn 2 seconds. and guess what..i got butterflies again. dammit, if he called me up tonite and asked me to go out with him i so would. well i broke down and ended up explaining all of that to matt so maybe dustin would hang out with us all and matt was like sure. i dont think he understands and he prob thinks im fucking insane, but it was worth a shot. so now i'll see what happens when dustin and i hang out...we'll talk...catch up...but dammit..theres something to be said about gettin butterflies YEARS and i mean several years later...he was my first real "love" kinda like katies andrew. it was sweet..and it still is...awwww i want dustin now. lol dammit.

i bought a bunch of stuff at claires today...fun shit. lol

i think thats all for now. im gonna go check my email..yays!!! anyways....

*much love and hooters chicken wings*

when ever we go out the people always shout...

..i feel like a total idiot now. lol lauren sent me this lil post about my blog through my email and i automatically thought she had been the one sending comments about my blog..but duh julia, more than one person can post comments!! so im such a totally dipass. lol oh well.

i didnt go to school today cuz i didnt really feel like it...u ever get that feeling? of course u do, who doesnt. well i sat around the house watching VH1 on britney spears and donald trumph. fun shit. i played some guitar and pretending to read ap bio and actually did read some of the scarlette letter. yay.

i then went to physical thearpy and yeah...shock thearpy..again..dammit. i hate that shit! it hurts. at least to me it does. my damn muscles wont "wake up". tomorrow i go to the dr. yay, i'll more than likely get my stupid knee brace off for good. i'll be soooo happy. :D im just smiling as i sit here...not really. but inside i am.

I'm gonna be in the bear growl when it comes out..yay..i told about my summer and got my pic taken and its gonna be right in the paper..u know, ive never been in our school paper and i've been there for 3yrs now and we only have like 500 kids..so u would think everyone has been in it..nope. well now i am. yay. i pray i pray its a decent pic.

bethany is coming to spend thurs. and fri nites with me...im taking her to the game and out with all my friends fri nite. the thing is..shes kinda antisocial and really REALLY quiet..and im the EXACT opposite..so maybe she will have fun. her mother called and asked me if i would let her come over..what was i suppose to say? shes a nice girl and all..i just dont know her too well cuz she doesnt SPEAK. u know..so hmm..im going to socialize her daughter. lord..please dont let there be a kickass party i wanna go to.

gotta go..mom is screamin at me. love ya lauren!!!

*much love and cranberries*