It's December already! 



This December is going to be relaxed, I have promised myself. We have done all of the christmas shopping and it is even all wrapped up which I am very thankful for because I feel like I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown.
My back went out again 2 weeks ago and the pain is like nothing else on this earth. Apparently my problem is my Psoas Major muscle which is the red one in this picture.



It keeps going into spasm and messing up my back and legs. It is very frustrating because when it goes I can't move and it pulls on everything else which makes my whole body seem sore. I have invested in a machine called the Backlife which seems to be helping quite a lot in the pain reduction but the fear of it going again is the thing that is holding me back.

On a brighter note Al Murray was very very funny and I am so pleased we went to see him, I love stand up comedy and I am going to make an effort to go and see more shows this year. We have Faithless on Tuesday which I am looking forward too as long as my back holds out.
I have been trying to meditate a little more recently and it had been quite tough to get back into but it did make me sort out the healing room which is great because I always feel better when that room is clear I think it is important to have a space that you can go to when you need to relax, and I have needed it more than ever these past few weeks.
And with that I am actually going to go and use it right now. 

Posted: Fri - December 2, 2005 at 12:55 PM      


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