in the dark 



I swore they were there. They glowed and shimmered in the dark. I didn't know what they were or had a name for them but was afraid of them. I must have been 7 or 8, perhaps a little older, since I was sharing room with my dad and that must have happened when they decided I was too old to be in the large room where my mum, my sister and I slept. Can't remember any instance of them in my mum's room. Sometimes after my dad turned the lights out I would wrap myself in the blanket and shut my eyes tight not to see. i also liked the patterns of green light in my eyes that came shortly after I had been closing my eyes tight shut. But these would go or not appear at all, before I had the dread, the feeling, the knowing that they were there in the room, or one of them was. It was never clear what they were. At some point, very early on and when I still believed in this, I thought it was one of the Guardians, the beings that had sent me here from what i called Imaginary City (since I couldn't exactly remember, only imagine it). But at some point I discarded this as a little child's fantasy, I was not a little boy any more and couldn't believe in something like that, , could I.

Neither could I believe in these things, whatever they were, but nonetheless, they were still there, their silvery glow shimmering in the dark, the sudden cold dread in the room... 

Posted: Wed - July 7, 2004 at 02:30 PM          

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