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| Stopping the Copenhagen | | Date Created: Mar 27, 2005, 08:11 PM |
What a day! Finally got some rest when we got home from Church...
Something strange - I stopped dipping on my Birthday a few days ago and I actually have not wanted to dip at all. That stuff has like 10 times more nicotin than cigarettes and it lasts like 20 times longer than a cigarette, so it's kinda strange that I have not wanted one. I actually went through the same thinking process in boot camp - I didn't crave dip when quitting back then either.
The one thing that got me to start up again was that it seemed to help me calm my personality at times. Whenever I have went without dip for any amount of time (I took my first dip when I was 6 years old) I find it harder and harder to control bad impulses. The longer I go without one the harder it is to control myself - you would think that after a year or two it would all be good - but it doesn't, it just gets worse. I'm still pretty good at controlling myself - it's just that whatever is in that stuff made it easier for me to do it. Smoking never did it for me (neither did any other type of dip actually), so it has to be something in the Copenhagen itself...
Anyway, it takes a lot out of me simply to control myself - I, literally, have to keep myself in check every waking second...
For those of you who are wondering - there is only one reason why I am quitting. I do not want my kids to do it, and the only way anyone can lead (and expect any type of good result) is through example. When I was a kid my Dad always use to tell us not to smoke with a cigarette in his hand - when you see that, you really do not hear the words coming out of someone's mouth. If you don't want someone to smoke, you can't have a cigarette in your hand while telling them not to... |
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