Disappointed 


Rainy mushy yucky 

Alas, not much more than a dusting this morning when at bedtime last nite it looked like we would have 4 or 5 inches on the ground by morning the way it was coming down *sigh* ..... no work closing, no delayed opening..... rats. Oh well -a full work week and we really are back to the grindstone.

And the sad thing is that I have brought a TON of work home with me this weekend --- my weekend will be full of catching up on work work, doing grad school work and buying and setting up an XMas tree.....

Somehow I seem to have hit 268 hits on the blog - with some regular readers from east and west coast (little did you know, yes, we can track you and yes, your boss does know what you really are doing at work....) ... sadly I only have like 4 or 5 commenters or emailers... not that I seek out the stalking, but I always wonder if people that read this have any thoughts about what I have to say :). I guess I want comments like a letters to the editor -- although Carrie on Sex and the City never seems to get responses to her columns, and she is, after all, my role model :). eeeewwwwwwwww.

Actually I cannot wait for SATC to come back... the final season is way better than season 5 - (I cannot believe they have the GALL to charge $35 for the two dvd set - which is what they charge for the 3-disc sets of the other full seasons, not the abbreviated 8-episode season) tho season 5 has my favorite episode of ALL TIME... the "Plus One is the Loneliest Number ...." where she meets Berger and they "Spark." *sigh* I love the SPARK experience....

I remember the last time I SPARKED with someone... I met this guy Rodney at the gym (I wanna say circa Dec 2001) (ok, yes I do have enough social skills to meet people outside the gym... its just that men are so cute when they wear so little...), and I work in on the fly machine with him and we start talking and we seem to have a lot in common and we are having this amazing conversation, and we are really connecting and we are even at times finishing each other's sentences. I realized that it was the best workout I had had in a long time... we do some time on the cycle together, stretch and do abs, head into the locker room and say that we should workout again together, and bold me I say, "Ya know, let's not leave this to a chance meeting at the gym, let's plan to get together here or for a movie or coffee... I want to give you my number..." and he looks at me and says, "Ummmm I don't think my boyfriend would really approve of that." AAAAIIIIIGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Talk about crushing defeat. But even then, I recovered enough to realize that if we were sparking like that, I still wanted to maintain contact with him. So I said, "We don't have to do this as a date... just to get to know each other...." and he smiles and takes my number and doesn't call.

I have run into Rodney twice since then. Both times i felt that Pang of "What if..." and "Why didn't...."

But I have come to a conclusion SPARK moments.... however fleeting that they may be, they serve a real purpose. They are there to remind us just exactly what it is we want to feel when we meet that someone - and that we must not settle, no matter what.

So dammit, Rodney, wherever you are since I haven't seen you in a year or so, I understand why you dropped in for a minute there.

OK, I am done channeling Carrie. 

Posted: Fri - December 5, 2003 at 07:48 PM          
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