The Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation Ride for a Cure

Asheville, North Carolina

October 6-9, 2005

 

Thursday morning, October 6, 2:07 am. I remember blinking and hurrying to get ready. Coffee doesn’t do much to really get me functional, but I make it to my car, and to the airport by 4:30 or so. I’m the first one there; next year I’ll be able to sleep in later. We’re all there in plenty of time: Brian, Mike, Alison, Rod and Diana, Ann, Andrea, Diane, and me. We get stuffed into a commuter jet and, right on schedule, are sent blasting through the sky as the sun starts to appear over the horizon. Cincinnati is the same. We see clouds below, and shortly before we land in Asheville, rain starts to streak our tiny windows. The attendants on the ground hand us umbrellas for the dash from the plane to the terminal – not bad for a bankrupt airline!

 

At the baggage claim, we’re met by Elise from the JDRF. I am unfortunately not met by my bag, so I let the Delta people at the check-in counter know where I will be, and we drive to Asheville. We’re early enough that rooms aren’t ready at the Renaissance Inn, so we stash our stuff at the front desk and wander off. Diane and Rod and Diana and I eat a brunchy kind of meal at a little café who’s name immediately escapes me; it was good, but not great. I start to see evidence of hippiness – this is a granola town! We also find a bike shop, and I begin to mentally replace my bike clothes.

 

Back at the hotel, I am still bagless and roomless, so I read. Around one in the afternoon, Alison tells me my room is ready, so I head up, intending to nap. After laying down and watching the Weather Channel (Rain! Rain! Raaaaain!) for a while, the phone rings – my bag! Wahoo! A porter brings it up; now I’m too happy to nap so I head out to walk around town. On the way out, I see a big semi pulling in; apparently our bikes are here as well! The day is vastly improved, except for the whole rain thing. I walk for a couple of hours, long enough to get a bit footsore, and far enough to get sort of lost, though not for long. I find a map shop and buy topographical maps of what I think will be the big climb of the ride.

 

Back at the hotel, we gather for dinner in the evening, along with most of the rest of the team – Maria, Tony and Joni, and eventually our coach Mike, who turns out to be my roommate. The dinner is quite good, and accompanied by wine and beer and good conversation. After eating, a number of us head out and end up at an Irish pub. it seems like every bar in town has live music, including this one, but there’s also an outside patio here so we can get far enough from the band to hear each other. The bouncer tells us his sister has diabetes, and thanks us each for doing the ride. We talk for a couple of hours and then head back to the hotel, and sleep.

 

Friday morning, we meet for breakfast in the hotel ballroom. It is still raining outside, enough so that the official “tuneup ride” is cancelled. Cyclists being the lot that we are, people begin appearing in riding clothes anyway, and collecting their bicycles from the truck in the parking lot. Most of us West Michigan folks do the same; I’m eager to get on Ruby and cruise for a few miles for the first time in nearly two weeks. It’s a nice, if wet, ride, 16 or so miles, and takes us up the first hill of the main ride. I’m a wet, muddy, happy mess when we return to the hotel, slightly late for a Rider’s Tips meeting. After the meeting, I take my bike back up to my room and give it a good cleaning, prior to doing the same for myself. That afternoon, I mostly take it easy, reading, walking around the city a bit before the inevitable pasta dinner in the evening.

 

Dinner also brings some awards, for the best fundraising (something over eleven thousand dollars), the most recruits (twelve for an individual, 44 for a chapter employee, if I remember correctly), and such. The Hy-Vee contingent is enormous, covering several states; we discuss how to get some more Herman Millerites in the room to counter the grocery group. We certainly can’t match a company with some fifty thousand employees, but there are a lot of West MI riders who can do this thing!

 

The highlight of the dinner is a little girl from Iowa; she and her mother take the stage and describe the symptoms that I’d heard before from the mother of the little girl who I’m riding for – constant drinking, and constant diaper- and bed-wetting. It’s touching, and inspiring to hear that she’s riding on Saturday; she gets a big standing ovation, which has her, and most of the audience, in tears.

 

On a more mundane note, we get course information – we won’t be climbing to the Blue Ridge Parkway, as there are roads apparently in various states of disrepair after heavy hurricane-related rain last fall. The ride will challenging enough without the last, long climb, and the really hard parts will affect the metric-century riders as well as the hundred mile folks. The climb to the hundred-mile turnaround still looks like the highest point of the course, it’s just not quite as intimidating as the profile on the internet would suggest. Course markings are explained, and break stops are described, so we addled riders can find them easily enough after five hours of riding.

 

After dinner, most of us bring our bikes downstairs to avoid the early-morning elevator crush (you really can’t get more than three or four bikes in an elevator at a time), then a few of us go over to Magnolia’s for a drink or two, but otherwise, it’s an early night; tomorrow is the day for which I’ve been preparing for the whole summer, for over 2400 miles now.

 

The Ride

 

We’re up around 6:30 and head down to breakfast – waffles with syrup, eggs, toast, and fruit, all good pre-ride eats that’ll give good energy now and for the next couple of hours. I eat until I’m full, then head upstairs to change into ride gear. I feel a bit like I’m in a “girding for battle” scene in a middle-ages movie, pulling on all the goodies – very nice jersey, arm warmers, bike shorts with lots of BodyGlide rubbed into the saddle, leg warmers, goofy socks, shoes, rain jacket in a back pocket, a little food and my cell phone in the other pockets, then the helmet and gloves, and sunglasses tucked away. I make many bathroom trips – I don’t feel nervous, but my bladder betrays me, the way it did before cross-country races in high school. At least I know I’m well-hydrated before the ride.

 

Downstairs, I collect Ruby and head outside; it’s just before dawn. For the first time since we arrived, it’s actually not raining, but it’s overcast and cool; conditions are actually pretty good. There’s a lot of anticipatory standing around, picture taking, bike checking, and the like, until someone gets on a microphone and introduces the Asheville vice-mayor, who tells us how great we are, and then reads an officially-worded proclamation that today is Ride for a Cure Day. It’s my first event worthy of official proclamation. After the brief speechifying, we’re led in some stretches that I can’t hear or see, so I do my own thing. I’ve got hours to warm things up and stretch out.

 

We’ve been instructed to sort ourselves into “fast, faster, and fastest” groups; the “fastest” squad is sent off onto the course first. A minute or two later, they call for the “faster” squad, which most of us have put ourselves into – it’s by far the biggest of the three groups, not too surprisingly. We roll out of the hotel’s back parking lot and out into the street, where we loosely line up. After a group shout of “We’re riding for a cure!” we’re off. The first few intersections are police-patrolled so we can roll though en masse. Our first downhill is a short, steep drop immediately before a right turn onto what will become Broadway Street; it will be our last uphill, to, in a few hours. The roads are mercifully dry and there’s little traffic other than us. We cruise North out of town, and quickly stretch out into a lumpy line along Riverside Drive, which soon joins the French Broad River. I’ve traced out the course here: http://tinyurl.com/98kn2

 

I feel kind of stiff and clumsy, and my bike is noisy from the rain and grit of yesterday. It’s actually a bit disconcerting, as Ruby is normally professionally silent. We’ve been told that the first 20 miles is a good place to make some time, as it’s generally flat, and there’s a time cutoff at the 32 mile rest stop – if you’re not there by 11:30, they won’t let you go on and try to do the whole 100 miles. That’s really a pretty generous allowance, but the group I’m with doesn’t bother with pacing as much as I’d like, cruising in the 19 to 21 mile per hour range. I decide to drop back a bit and let my legs warm up at a more normal rate. Everyone skips the break stop at the 8 mile mark; it’s really not needed at this point (although shortly after I have to stop and visit the little boy’s tree off the side of the road). Stacey stays with the group and pulls ahead steadily. I end up riding with Brian and Mike until the rest stop at the 21 mile mark, where I eat bananas, orange slices, and load some energy gel packs into my pocket. I also track down some WD-40 – it’s not a great lubricant, but it’s better than nothing, and it does the trick on my noisy drivetrain. After using the porta-potty, I’m off, and the course begins to climb in earnest.

 

Here the road is wet, more with mist than rain, but it’s not bad. It’s a beautiful road that switchbacks gently up a valley along a rocky, moss-lined stream. Everything is as green as can be; fall colors are only barely showing here. The slope isn’t too bad, and I settle into a pace that’s comfortable and maintainable. I’ve done a fair amount of hill riding this year, and it shows, as I’m regularly passing people. It’s not a race, but I still want a good time for the distance; I’ve never competed successfully against anyone but myself anyway.

 

The wet, winding road continues for a mile or so, and then opens up onto a wide, recently paved major road with a nice wide shoulder. It’s easy to maintain speed in the mid-teens, and it feels good to have a couple of gear ratios left in the bank. I actually start feeling a bit cocky about the climbing. The national coach described this first long hill as the first real test of the ride, and it’s thus far only long, not really steep.

 

An official vehicle is stationed at an intersection, and the driver waves us off onto a side road that descends for a ways. I think I’m actually over the first hill at this point. At some point, though, I start to climb again, and this time there are more teeth to the slope; it’s a low-gear grind. I’m still doing well relative to others around me, but it’s hard, and tunnel vision starts to set it. When I look up, the scenery is amazing, with glimpses of the layers of soft hilltops that these mountains are famous for, and horse farms, and sometimes tobacco drying in a shed. But the roads are also winding, and the word “flat” seems to not be part of the local vocabulary. At some point the road gets rough, and I feel the next climb start, and I realize just how steep it is – this one is the truly nasty one, ski-hill steep. I’m in my lowest gear, doing my best to keep my legs ahead of the grade, trying to keep something like good form at less than 5 miles an hour. I have to get up and out of the saddle to maintain any kind of momentum, but my legs are going to mush. The top of that slope is a blur of relief, and I’m too far gone to even wonder what it will be like to go down this thing later in the day.

 

Finally I make it to the 32 mile checkpoint. I’m in plenty of time, and again eat some fruit and energy stuff, and make another bathroom stop. The energy gels are my newest friend; they’re disgusting, like sweet snot, but the effect on my energy level is almost immediate. I’m surprised to see Stacey roll in after me; I don’t recall passing her (her ponytail is a dead giveaway). It turns out she and a few others made a wrong turn and went more than a mile down what was fortunately a short dead-end road. Brian and Mike are in shortly after me as well, take a brief stop, and are on their way before me. I end up leapfrogging them and Stacey for most of the day.

 

From the checkpoint, the road drops away into a wide valley in a series of meandering curves. I don’t think we’ve done a truly straight line since leaving Asheville. It’s beautiful; there are leaves on the road, but not enough to make the surface treacherous. The long descent continues until we cross a river on a single-lane bridge, the surface of which is crumbling just enough to reveal that it’s a layer of asphalt over thick wood planks. From there, it’s a gentle ascent on a main road (I’m reasonably sure it’s State Highway 197) that goes on for miles, and gradually gets a bit steeper. The 48 mile checkpoint appears on the right rather suddenly; since the turnaround is only a couple of miles ahead, I go past. The road gets steeper; it’s not as steep as the ski hill climb, but it feels steeper than the first climb after the 20 mile checkpoint. My legs are starting to feel the day’s work, so it’s a first-gear tunnel-vision climb. It’s wet – we’re in mountain mist. There’s a steady stream of people coming down, most smiling and offering encouragement, and then there’s the turnaround – it’s just a van and some volunteers standing around taking pictures of riders. Beyond them, the road turns to dirt, so it’s a fine thing that my odometer reads 50.4 miles.

 

After a moment to look around and catch my breath, I turn Ruby back to retrace the course. The downhill slope is nice, but that mist that felt warm on the grind up is truly cold now. When I see the checkpoint, I’m shivering. I see Stacey just starting up the slope. I’m starting to either feel really good about the day or my mental faculties are getting less and less oxygen, but I turn around and ride up to the turnaround with her. I always ride better with another person within reach, and that slope was long and steep enough to be dismaying at a few points, so I hope I can be of use. I also get to go down that slope again, this time with my arm warmers pulled up. On the way back down, Stacey rolls on while I stop for food and water. The orange slices are particularly appealing.

 

As I’m leaving the checkpoint, Rod arrives, looking good – his previous long ride before today was 44 miles, but he seems well on his way to doing the whole thing. Rolling down I pass Ann and Coach Mike within a mile of the checkpoint. Ann, who is our Ride Chair, has Type 1 Diabetes, and despite not training as much as she’d hoped is bound and determined to complete the 100 miles, powered as needed by Skittles. For a person to know that 15 Skittles will raise her blood sugar by 50 point speaks to a certain amount of experience will the disease!

 

The ride down to the bridge crossing is smooth and steadily downhill, so I cut loose and cruise in my big gears for much of it, holding steady in the mid-20 mile per hour range. It’s nice to have that speed for less effort than it feels like I’ve been expending for most of the day. As soon as I turn right off of the main road, though, there’s a fairly long, serious climb, and there’s no way to maintain the momentum partway up it due to the sharp turn onto it, so it’s a hard, slow grind – there’s no more immediate contrast anywhere else on this course between easy speed and slow suffering. Almost everyone I see is walking up it.

 

Past that hill, I’m back info the gentle switchbacks in the wide valley, this time climbing. Eventually I catch up to someone who has a “COACH” tag on the back of his jersey; it turns out to be the coach of the Asheville team. He and I ride together for the gently rising portion of the road, but as the road starts to climb more steadily, he drops back a bit. After some steady climbing, I crest a hill that overlooks the 32-mile-to-go checkpoint, and roll down for more food, water, and gels. I’ve yet to empty even one water bottle; the checkpoints are near enough to one another, and the day is cool and moist enough, that I don’t drink much more than half of a bottle before I have the chance to fill it again. I’m having to use the porta-potties at every rest stop, though, so I know I’m staying hydrated enough.

 

As with past checkpoints, Stacey is leaving just as I’m rolling in, so I’ve got someone to chase for the next 10 miles once I get going, too. Brian and Mike leapfrog ahead of me, too; Brian seems to be doing a bit better, although he’s still stretching every chance he gets to work the cramps out.

 

After eating as many orange slices as I can stuff into my mouth, I saddle up again, and head into the hilliest part of the return back to Asheville. I catch up with Brian and Mike; Brian’s unfortunately cramping again on the hills. We ride together down the super-steep part; purely coasting, and in fact riding my brakes slightly, I top 40 miles an hour. If only the road surface was smoother (it’s a lot like a recent chipseal – extremely rough), and I was more familiar with the bends at the bottom, that would be a truly memorable descent. We catch up to Stacey in there somewhere, too; being in the hills, I know I’ve got pretty major tunnel vision, and I can’t quite remember when it was. I remember us all riding together for a while, and then I pulled ahead a bit on the hills.

 

Grinding up those hills after almost 80 miles is pretty humbling; it’s all I can do to keep from stopping and putting a foot down. I’ve tried all summer to train myself to keep up a good cadence especially when climbing, but the combination of the length and grade of these hills, the tiredness in my legs, and my bike’s lack of super-low gearing make doing anything more than survival pedaling impossible. Some of these slopes are so long and winding that a sort of pained resignation sets in; I know that, any time the road seems to level out a bit, around the next bend the grade will increase yet again. There are stretches of road where I can’t see another person, let alone another cyclist in a yellow and orange jersey, and the road is only marked at the intersections. It becomes easy to convince myself that I’ve made a wrong turn and am now heading towards Tennessee rather than Asheville, and at one point I actually do, and backtrack for half a mile or so until an Official Vehicle flags me down and wonders what the heck I’m doing – it’s pretty obvious they’re wondering if I’m OK.  Every so often, though, I pick up something familiar, or a glimpse of a bicycle in the distance, and I can go back to worrying about keeping my feet moving in circles and trying to ignore the weight that seems to accumulate in my thighs the more I climb.

 

Finally, though, I realize that the intersection ahead is with the major road that I was so cocky about climbing; I’m nearing the 20-mile-to-go checkpoint. Cruising back down this hill is wonderful, especially when the main road sort of veers away and we get back on the gently-switchbacking road alongside a tumbling stream. These curves are blind, but gentle enough that I don’t feel like I have to brake down to a fast walking speed to sweep around them. It ends all too soon at the checkpoint; again, it’s right to the oranges for me, and the Fritos are pretty appealing, too. Stacey, Brian, and Mike show up pretty soon after me, and don’t dawdle at all; they’re back on the road before me, as is the Asheville coach.

 

Once I get going, I catch up to the Asheville coach again, and he and I pace each other nicely, in the 16-18 mile per hour range. We seem to have a bit of a tailwind, but it’s hard to be sure in the river valley; sometimes it feels like a headwind. Ahead, we see a couple of riders who look fairly familiar to me; as we pass, it turns out that it’s Diane and Maria rolling merrily along; they made it to the 32 mile point before turning back, which put them through the most challenging of the hills.  That’s awesome for both of them; Diane had suffered foot cramps on a lot of our training rides, and Maria, being from Florida, had hardly ridden anything that could be called a hill. Both of them are grinning already. At some point, I look down and see that the first digit on my trip odometer is a 9; I’ve now ridden further than ever on a single ride.

 

Somewhere in there we also catch up with Stacey yet again, and she latches on to the draft for a couple of miles. At some point, she drops off to ride her own pace, not long before the road begins to rise again – the last real hill of this ride. Our pace slows predictably, but somewhere as we climb I start to feel an adrenalin surge, not competitive, but it’s demanding that I ride this hill a bit harder. I quietly press ahead and build a bit of speed, maybe up to double digits, which, adrenalin or not, is something of a surprise this far into the ride. It feels good – really, really good – and better yet, it feels like I can maintain it for as long as the road chooses to climb.

 

Before long, almost too soon, the hill crests in an almost imperceptible change in grade from up to flat to down, and I let Ruby go. Before long, my speedometer is showing the high 30s, and the adrenaline is far from gone, so I click up though the gears, let my hands fall onto the drops, and start pressing on. 40 shows up on my computer. I click up as high as my drive train will allow. It’s a silly thing, but I want to have a top speed for the day as well as a distance. Finally, I see 45 on the display, and my legs can’t go any faster to get any more, so I sit up and feel the air press me back to a more rational speed. A Nissan Altima that I had no idea was behind me passes me, and the driver gives me a wave.

 

Now this is really the homestretch, and I feel it. The road is flat, for real for a change, and there’s a definite, pretty strong tailwind, and all that adrenaline is still there, and the emotion of it all is catching up. I’d thought I’d at some point do a 100+ mile ride on my own during the summer, just to be sure that I could do it; I’m so glad I didn’t. But the third digit on the trip meter, cool as it may be on its own and even cooler on this challenging group ride, is so little of it – alone, it would have left this trip with an anticlimactic, vaguely unsatisfying feel to it. But I’m not doing this ride alone, and it’s not just about my own accomplishment; I’ve spent this weekend with people who know what they’re doing, and who know exactly why they’re doing it. They wake up with all the reason they need hanging from their belt, or worse, they know that they can check their child’s blood in the middle of the night without the kid waking up. How is that possible, that a kid can have a finger pricked and not even wake up? How can someone be used to that, to the extent that it’s not even worth waking up for? It’s a motivation that I’ve been mercifully unaware of, but being exposed to it is enough to make me wonder if I can go back to even pretending to care about a custom filing cabinet. My attention span is short enough as it is without that kind of question hanging over me as I sit in my little box every day.

 

I break out of the reverie at just the right moment, to see my trip meter roll from 99.9 miles to 100. It’s worth a little whoop. I’m cruising in earnest now, at the wonderful, wind-assisted speed of 20 to 24 miles an hour. Asheville is coming more and more into view, with buildings I now recognize. The last mile takes me under Interstate 240, and a couple of blocks later, to a left turn that takes me up a short, obnoxious little hill, with no chance to have any momentum to start, and a stop light right at the top, so you can’t just keep going. In fact, I’m still on the slope when I have to stop, and I’m sort of straddling lanes with cars on both sides of me. At least I’m in a useable gear when we get a green, and I grind across the intersection with Broadway Street. The hotel is in full view; as I turn right into the driveway and head for the back of the building, I hear cowbells. Back, around the bend to the left, through a set of traffic cones, and there’s Alison with my camera, and then that’s it, I’m done – 105 miles exactly, in 6 hours and 54 minutes of ride time (plus who knows how many minutes at rest stops), for a 15.1 mph average, with a 45.7 mph top speed. I get a nice heavy medal, a finisher’s T-shirt, and a hug from someone who’s later recognized for hugging every single tired, sweaty, stinky person who finishes.

 

I don’t want to be done, though; I’m still full of adrenalin and emotion, and I’ve got to get some of it out before I can stand still, so I slip back onto the saddle and head back out. Stacey rides around the corner and to the finish only a moment after I do; she’s got the same tired, sort of addled grin that I start to see on every person who rolls in. Heading back along the course, I pass Brian and Mike pretty soon, and then Diane and Maria. Maria’s already got a giant smile going. I turn around and roll back in with them, back up that silly hill, and back though the cowbells. I’m embarrassed to hear my name called again by the finish announcer. This time, though, it’s enough, so I lean Ruby up against the truck where all the bikes are accumulating and go get a nice, big roast beef and cheese sandwich.

 

We all stand around, waiting for the next West Michigan rider to come in. The wind is getting stronger and it’s not warm, but it doesn’t feel right to go in and warm up before we’re all here. Rod appears around the corner at around 6, looking tired; the happy part doesn’t show up until he’s been off the bike for a few minutes. The 100 miles he’s done is more than double his previous longest bike ride – that’s willpower that gets you through something like that, particularly when your long rides have been West Michigan flat. Tunnel vision may preclude visions of the scenery, but it will get you to a distant goal with remarkable efficiency.

 

A few minutes after Rod, Ann and Mike appear, arms up. As Mike says later, Ann was powered by stubborn resolve and a few well-timed Skittles, which are apparently her remedy of choice for falling blood sugar. She’s our ride captain, a 17 year veteran of type 1 diabetes, and a long-time cyclist who describes herself as an Energizer Bunny – not fast, but able to go forever, which she’s demonstrated today.

With that, we all entrust our bikes to the big truck again, set out in rows according to their home destinations, and head up to scrape the goo and crust from our bodies and come back down to dinner. It’s a nice, big meal, and we hear some of the day’s stories. The biggest is how Grandma Barb, riding at age 78 and part of a three-generation ride family, was run off the road by a car and crashed down an embankment along the river. Her aftereffects were limited to a few stitches and an argument with the EMTs about whether or not she should allow herself to be carried back up the embankment in a stretcher or not. Riding this sort of thing, no matter what distance I try, in 45 more years is a goal to care about, and being tough enough to tumble down a hill and still argue with a paramedic would be just grand.

 

So now it’s almost two weeks since we returned from Asheville. I took the Monday following off, just to sort of collect myself a bit and allow a transition from diabetes to filing cabinets, to say nothing of catching up on sleep a bit in a familiar bed. Tuesday was a miserable day at work. I was still full of enthusiasm for the idea of the ride and what it represented, and sitting in my little box, staring at another box, wondering what the sky looked like, and working on some odd special was frankly miserable.

 

I was going to say it’s gotten better since then, but I’m not entirely sure. I’ve rolled back into doing my work, plugging back though Pro/ENGINEER code and the like with no more distractability than before, but there’s always the nagging sense behind the work that what I’m doing is not really contributing to much more than the aesthetics of someone’s office, and all I’m doing in that case is trying to match the visions of some designer.

 

I did get my bike back today, albeit briefly – I found cracks in the rear rim, so Ruby’s in for repair under warranty – so hopefully I’ll still have the occasional nice day for riding for at least a little while. I’ve found that all those things that have sort of come up for me on this ride at will always make a little more sense when I’m able to let my legs spin faster than my brain!

 

I’m already looking forward to next year!