only connect
i keep coming back to forster's
the
machine stops
i know, the title is from
howard's
end, but it's all the same story in
a way, this absurdly alienated life we live, completely ignorant of our
environment save the most superficial aspects, walking about treating these
magnificent bodies we are given as if they were mere transportation devices for
our heads, our jealous heads. their only competition for control of the body is
the genitals, and look at how the jealous heads either co-opt the genitals with
porn, cybersex, dirty thoughts, or denigrate the genitals with the infamous
campaign against sex.
ah yes, the jealous head.
so i noticed that everyone seems to be afraid of everyone else, at least here in the village. i mean, you're standing in line at the grocery store you might as well be on an elevator. lot's of conversations in the head, i'm sure. everybody looking around avoiding eye contact. it's creepy if you break out of it for a while and start to notice that it's a roomful of people walking around avoiding contact with everyone but the checkout girl and the posse they came in with.
and then you break out of the zeitgeist and say something like "is that yours too?" as you point to a deli item that is still on the little conveyor belt after the checkout girl has given him his total. and then after he pockets his change and starts to grab his groceries he gives you that smile that says he isn't afraid of you.
i keep thinking that television is like this 24/7 99 channels of fear. and it can pull anyone down. and one small moment in a person's day can strip that burden of fear away for awhile.
i said back in december that 'it's all about connect and disconnect. you're doing one or the other. that's which team you're on.' i wish it were as easy as that. i forgot about the element of time. it's more accurate to say 'you're doing one or the other at any given moment.' they don't let you join a team until you are consistent.
okay then. must remember to connect.
ah yes, the jealous head.
so i noticed that everyone seems to be afraid of everyone else, at least here in the village. i mean, you're standing in line at the grocery store you might as well be on an elevator. lot's of conversations in the head, i'm sure. everybody looking around avoiding eye contact. it's creepy if you break out of it for a while and start to notice that it's a roomful of people walking around avoiding contact with everyone but the checkout girl and the posse they came in with.
and then you break out of the zeitgeist and say something like "is that yours too?" as you point to a deli item that is still on the little conveyor belt after the checkout girl has given him his total. and then after he pockets his change and starts to grab his groceries he gives you that smile that says he isn't afraid of you.
i keep thinking that television is like this 24/7 99 channels of fear. and it can pull anyone down. and one small moment in a person's day can strip that burden of fear away for awhile.
i said back in december that 'it's all about connect and disconnect. you're doing one or the other. that's which team you're on.' i wish it were as easy as that. i forgot about the element of time. it's more accurate to say 'you're doing one or the other at any given moment.' they don't let you join a team until you are consistent.
okay then. must remember to connect.
Posted: Mon - March 8, 2004 at 09:30 PM
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