Feb 2008
Van Blog
Feb 27 2008-12:01
no, not some Dutch guy, i'm just writing this from inside the van. We are heading home after the first test for the smaller cars. We were in Spain for 5 days, and it was not so bad. good weather at least. Last year, i bought a little power inverter that plugs into the ciggy lighter in any vehicle and puts out mains power, so i can run the laptop for the duration of the trip. which helps because the battery on my laptop is now crap and last only 20 min or so, and the trip to Valencia is 11 hours - each way.
As i re-read a previous blog, two things come to mind. 1) thanks to those that showed concern, but indeed, i am fine. everyone has a blah day here and there, no? 2) i wrote the last entry on Valentines Day. What a load of shit day, eh? now, i don't say that just because i am perpetually single and jaded (well, ok, i suppose that doesn't hurt my opinion) but i still felt this way when i had 'significant others'. just another commercial method of showing someone 'you care'. What's that? you love me? in that case, buy me shit. or: hey, i love you, here are some roses that cost 5x normal price because it's a 'special' day and they will die in a week anyway...
get fucked
i know it's easy to say, and i like to think i have done so in the past, and i'm pretty sure i will again, if given the chance, but: what about letting that sig other know they fucking matter to to you more than one day a year? and it doesn't have to be bought gifts all the time, right? yes, they are nice, indeed, but once a year, just because 'they' say so? nope. Fuck, i'd probably shoot a load right then and there if my (non-existant) partner came home with some flowers for me on any given day...
i don't know where i'm going with this. my rant has derailed. there is more, but my methods of explanation will only confuse the issue...
Fuck it. Out.
As i re-read a previous blog, two things come to mind. 1) thanks to those that showed concern, but indeed, i am fine. everyone has a blah day here and there, no? 2) i wrote the last entry on Valentines Day. What a load of shit day, eh? now, i don't say that just because i am perpetually single and jaded (well, ok, i suppose that doesn't hurt my opinion) but i still felt this way when i had 'significant others'. just another commercial method of showing someone 'you care'. What's that? you love me? in that case, buy me shit. or: hey, i love you, here are some roses that cost 5x normal price because it's a 'special' day and they will die in a week anyway...
get fucked
i know it's easy to say, and i like to think i have done so in the past, and i'm pretty sure i will again, if given the chance, but: what about letting that sig other know they fucking matter to to you more than one day a year? and it doesn't have to be bought gifts all the time, right? yes, they are nice, indeed, but once a year, just because 'they' say so? nope. Fuck, i'd probably shoot a load right then and there if my (non-existant) partner came home with some flowers for me on any given day...
i don't know where i'm going with this. my rant has derailed. there is more, but my methods of explanation will only confuse the issue...
Fuck it. Out.
No title needed
Feb 23 2008-12:19
Can't figure this one out. Today i cried. not like metaphorically, actual tears, nose running like a Kenyan at the Olympics, the lot. Strange. I was sitting in the van, we were heading to Valencia for some testing, and i was reading Autosport - a racing industry magazine. Not your normal heart wrenching reading material.
History
Feb 14 2008-00:22
For some unknown reason, i chose to listen to The Waifs tonight. Sorry, no hyperlink, i can't be fucked to look up a URL for them, and besides, if i go away now and find one then sure as shit i will get distracted on a clicking spree!
It's enough to state they are a little know Australian band, and listening to them reminds me so much of my short year in Australia. Well, it was a full 365 days, i just say short because i didn't want to leave, and there was so much more to do there!
Anyway, i was thinking of the trip, and how it feels like a lifetime ago. And i am having trouble remember explicit details. I'm glad i kept a pretty decent journal while i was there - now i just have to remember where that journal is!
Still some memories stand out - visiting 'Toronto' (when i saw the road sign, i just had to pull off the motorway and see it!), standing on the Tropic of Capricorn, climbing, 'shrimp on the barbie', my first summer time Christmas... i suppose the list of memories is bigger than i thought! i just needed to write it out and think about it more and usual.
I keep saying i want to go back, but i wonder if i would try to make it the same as it was, or if i would search new adventures?? Maybe a different country, then i have no choice except to have new adventures...
It's enough to state they are a little know Australian band, and listening to them reminds me so much of my short year in Australia. Well, it was a full 365 days, i just say short because i didn't want to leave, and there was so much more to do there!
Anyway, i was thinking of the trip, and how it feels like a lifetime ago. And i am having trouble remember explicit details. I'm glad i kept a pretty decent journal while i was there - now i just have to remember where that journal is!
Still some memories stand out - visiting 'Toronto' (when i saw the road sign, i just had to pull off the motorway and see it!), standing on the Tropic of Capricorn, climbing, 'shrimp on the barbie', my first summer time Christmas... i suppose the list of memories is bigger than i thought! i just needed to write it out and think about it more and usual.
I keep saying i want to go back, but i wonder if i would try to make it the same as it was, or if i would search new adventures?? Maybe a different country, then i have no choice except to have new adventures...
Sunday Blahs
Feb 10 2008-23:55
i'm not a big fan of the Sunday Blahs... there is only 5 minutes left in this shitty day, but the blahs don't switch off at the stroke of midnight.