| I'm back but not sure better | | Date Created: Aug 20, 2006, 07:48 PM |
| The new house is awesome. The new yard is incredible and I didn't know it before we moved but apparently zebras swim in the pond and pirates have hidden treasure chests all over the place. Right now I am typing in the dark of my new office that doesn't have any lights yet. All of my important papers and things that I need are still in boxes. John is in his bed but is screaming at the top of his lungs. I am so thankful to be here. I love the house. I had an INCREDIBLE night away visiting a friend with another friend in North Carolina. But now I am so overwhelmed. It's not that everything fell apart without me. I think it was heading that direction already and I just got out of town. Everything is a mess. Nothing is where I can find it. I have about 20 emails and phone calls I need to return. I haven't unpacked my camera yet so I don't have any pictures right now. Tomorrow is Monday. I really need one more day. I wouldn't trade my girls' night out of town for anything, but let me indulge in some pessimism. I think the time away, out of the chaos gave me fresh eyes and a new perspective into how out-of-control everything is here. And I don't even know where to start. I'm probably just tired. It's hard enough taking care of the boys when you can find most things or at least when you know where to look. Everything from the plunger Georgie decided to use in their bathroom ("But Daddy did it!") to a scarf I swear I dropped off at Goodwill two years ago is strewn across our new square-footage. Dirty diapers sit like ticking bombs at the bottom of the steps where I threw them waiting to go into the diaper pail that has been relegated to the garage. The sight of them reminds me of my complete failure at all potty-training attempts. We have a chandelier but don't know how to install it. John is suddenly scared of the dark. George almost turned his bookcase over onto him and so his bookcase is lying in his room sideways completely useless. I should just stop complaining and get off my ass and start unpacking more boxes but I don't know where to put what's in them and I can't even see because there's no overhead lighting and we don't have any more lamps. Dear God, please send me a to-do list. Prioritized. Just send me a list and I will follow. Please let the boys sleep well tonight. Please let them nap tomorrow. Please let me sleep well tonight. Help me wake up with a plan and help me see the right place to put everything instead of focusing on everything piled up in all the wrong places. |
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