What Am I Doing, Anyway?



Yeah, as wild and free as I may be appearing, I do have my moments when I'm wondering just what the Hel I'm doing. Don't I spend enough time skiddy-bopping around without doing it on my time off? I just bought a car and went running across the country to (at the furthest such far) California. Why?

I dunno. I flirted with the idea (I may have mentioned this last time) of a midlife crisis. I don't think so, though. If so, then midlife crises have a horribly overblown reputation. I'm having a blast. I'm really really enjoying myself for the first time in a long time. If that's the result of a crisis then it's a good result.

I think I'm just enjoying not having the responsibilities of the warzone, as I've been in 3 during the past two years. It's nice to be a civilian again, and a consumer, with that freedom to go where I want and do what I want.

Extreme in some cases? Well, the hunk of metal in my nipple says "yes." But really, that's not such a big deal either. It was something I wanted to do, and I did it. A little bit crazy? Hel, I always have been. I'm also able to be sane when I need to be, so I don't consider that a bad thing.

But yeah, I still have moments when I wonder what I'm doing and how I got to where I am. Part of being human, after all.

Speaking of what I'm doing and where I am.... Greetings from Peach Springs, Arizona, the heart of the Hualapai Nation! Tomorrow I raft the Colorado River through the Grand Canyon. I'm really excited. The hotel is very nice, especially considering the surrounding town. There's a rather busy train track somewhere close by, and I can hear, in the words of the country stars, that lonely whistle blowing.

I arrived just as today's tour was returning from the Canyon, and I heard nothing but good things. If my expectations are met, I'll let ya'll know, so that if you're ever out this way, you can do this thing.

I'm to be in the lobby at 7:30 in the morning for last minute prep stuff. We head out about 8.

I'll let you know, and keep you all posted on my crazy life. Take care, all.

Posted: Thu - June 17, 2004 at 02:18 PM          


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